Is this goodbye?

I know you love me.


And I know you know I love you.









But I still wish you don’t have to go.

(via Enchanted)

Valentine's Day special.

Love, is not love, until you give it away. ♥

Valentine's Day need not be celebrated by a candle light dinner, or with lovely gifts to each other, but by celebrating by spending the entire day with the one you love, as well as appreciate everything that they have done for you. Sometimes, small things do matter. In fact, every single thing they do for you matters the most. Do you remember all those little things? Like when was the first kiss? Where did you first held hands?

Sometimes, all we need is just time to spend with our love ones. Gifts and expensive dinners are just secondary items that we don't need. Everything we do for each other means alot, even if one think of it as a simple daily routine, it's the effort that was put into it that makes everything worth while. From holding hands, to kissing and hugging, as well as those short text messages that ask how is your day. It's these little things we do every single day that brings us to where we are this day.

And yes, I do remember all the little things we did together since the first day. It's those things that brings us to where we are today. I love you. ♥ So single or not, Valentine is for all to celebrate.

Happy belated Valentine to all. ♥

The Last Note - Confession.

Posted in Thoughts (my other blog which is now no longer available) on Febuary 14th 2010, 1159PM.

I always thought that I could go to you whenever anything happens.

I thought that things were working out just fine although I admit I was taking things quite slowly.

People said we were so good together.

I did things that now I regret it so much, but it does not change a thing to what has happened between us.

My heart hurts every single time I see you.

Therefore, I faked a smile every single time I see you.

I faked my "tidak-apa-face" so that you won't know what am I thinking or what I am feeling that moment.

All because I did not want you to see me crying anymore.

All because I just don't want to let you see how much I am suffering after hurting you that badly.

All because I don't want you to suffer no more.

You are my angel that I cherish so much.

Despite what I have done, I still love you.

And although I know I've said I did not love you anymore, I was telling a lie.

My heart hurts so badly that moment I told you what I didn't mean, just to get you out.

Our distance is a factor and so does communication.

I thought we could work that out.

But I guess all is too late now.

What I did was unforgivable, and I never asked for your forgiveness.

What I had, I did not know until the day I lost you.

Life without you, is going to be so different, but I will move on.

I will stay strong, and be stronger than I ever was.

See, I rather be your lover than be your friend. And if I can't be the one you want and need then I rather not be your friend at all.

Being mean is the only way I can force myself to accept the fact that life now is going to be without you. I will not bring up the past anymore and will move on. Though it hurts so badly but I believe time will heal whatever that's left of me. Life will never be the same anymore without you but I will stay strong and be stronger than I ever was.

There are things we don't want it to happen but have to accept, things we don't want to know but have to learn and people we can't live without but have to let go.

I love you. ♥

you are the best I have ever had.

4th day of CNY.

And before I officially go back to school, one last post. If you noticed, I have mentioned about a dinner at Shogun twice in 2 post. So yeah, I am going to blog about my dinner at Shogun. :D

It was a family dinner. With relatives. Basically you can say it's a Chang family dinner, as said by my aunt. So my aunt made reservations for 17 people at Shogun. But only 15 turn up.

Reached there sharp at 6PM, and Shogun just open for business! As we step in and was lead to our place - a super long table for 17 people - we straight away attacked the food! Our buttocks have not even touched the seats for a second! The power of buffet! LOL.

First round, I took ALOT of sushi, mainly for my father. I was his waitress that night. :/

The Tobiko sushi is MINE. :D

My food. First round only.

Some pasta. Don't like the taste.

Then everyone came.

Time to feast! :D

My sexy cousin and her boyfriend.

Desserts baby! The cheese cake is good! :D

My aunt's dessert. Her second or third round!

Everyone talked, chatted and listen. The adults - my father and his siblings, were chatting away, while some of my cousins went shopping, and some were talking and making lame jokes at the other end of the table. I left early to attend a yam cha session at Kota Damansara. I call it Taira's Rojak yam cha session at Pappa Rich, Kota Damansara. :D

Miss Khor and I.

With the host, Miss Taira. :) 'Till we meet again!

I got back home, went to wash up, then sat back down in front of my computer to upload the photos, edit them and upload again. Finally everything is done and I can go to school with a relieved heart that at least, I do not have any more photos to edit or upload. Now, to go to school. Chao~

3rd day of CNY.

Went all the way to Subang to my mother's friend's place for lunch. Appearantly, I was so caught up with their doggie Nico that I totally forgot about taking any pictures! :( Boo! Lunch was good. And the dog was hyper. Watched American Idol 10 on their big tv screen too. Left the place at about 2PM and headed over to my grandmother's place.

The amount of people there. My grandmother had her friends over to play mahjong. While the rest, my aunts and uncle were at the living area just chilling.

Oh and some of the kids, my cousins were hogging the computer playing.......

Angry Birds!

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA~

Of course, there's ang pows and drinks. But so far, no gambling. Good that way, at least I don't have to lose money. :P Headed over to The Blue Cow Cafe at Plaza Damas as my mother had some work to do. So hence, the pies.

Yummilicious aussie pies. Chicken pie's my favourite, since I can't eat beef. And boy was I stuffed! I can feel my stomach growing larger inch by inch each day due the non-stop eating. Did not finish the fries though, and my mother had to help me eat some!

This Blue Cow Cafe was once named Fogal, and while I was sitting there looking around, I miss the place when Trent and Christiaan was around. They were two awesome looking guys! :)

Miss them. :')

Headed home after snacking. Rested, showered, due to the hot weather. Eew. Stickiness. :X Then, it was time for dinner. I don't think I can stuff anymore food down my throat at that time.

Dinner at Magic Wok, Damansara Jaya.

We started with Yee Sang. The higher you go the better.

Hence, the messy table afterwards. xD

Next was of course, what you can't miss. Sharkfin soup.

Nice to eat, but poor sharks. :(

Next dish, baby pork. OooO~

Veggies~

Fish! My favourite fish! :P

Another pork dish. This one is the leg part.

Another veggie dish.

Fried rice. Delicious, my father said.

But unfortunately, I am unable to feed my stomach further.

Then the desserts came. I am also unable to eat further so all I did was watch everyone eat. :(

Boy I was stuffed. And I swear I put on 2kg! :/ After this CNY, I will have to start exercising. :x Now, to get ready and go for dinner. Shogun babeh! ^^ My stomach's ready! :D

立春

A trip to relative's place at Gita Bayu resulted in only capturing two photos. One is a picture of a Murai bird, and the other is this doggie. Doggie looks better so hence he's picture here. I totally forgotten to take a picture of the lunch and other things. :( Was indulged in my work. Oh crap. Speaking of my work, homework actually, I have yet to touched it since Friday! :/ Geez.

So later that afternoon, went back home to rest before heading to Seremban to visit another relative.

A pretty smooth ride but it took about an hour to reach and find the place. I have got no idea where is that place except that it's called Rasa Kemayan. (I think)

On the way father spotted his car! :P
With his initials he claims it to be his car! LOL

And after what seemed like a super LOOONNNG ride, we finally found and arrived at my aunt's place.

A pretty little house. :)

I found this chair's mechanism very interesting. You might think it's just a simply looking chair but that is what makes it interesting! It's just two piece of wood fixed together and walah~! A chair! xD

We chatted and chatted, aunt took us for a little tour around the house, as it was our first time there! And boy, a lovely house! :) Before I knew it, it was dinner time! Though my stomach has yet to tell me it's hungry.

Take a look at the food! :D Thanks to my aunt for cooking!! :D Although there's just 5 dishes, it's enough to fill all 14 of our stomachs! And yes, that was how many people that came to my aunt's place that day.

From vegetables, to fish, to pork and to curry chicken! Imagine 2 whole chicken used to make that awesome curry! WOW.


I think everyone can't wait to dig into that curry. Though this picture was taken halfway through the dinner.

There was a short entertainment time by my cousin and nephew after dinner. Hip-hop babeh! Woots! :D


After that entertainment, we resort to resting ourselves in front of the television. Guess what show everyone was watching while I sat on the massage chair with the laptop on my lap?

Mr. Bean!!!

The adults laughed the loudest while us youngsters just smiled. After that was another channel, watching on a documented show called Hidden Cities in Malaysia. Very interesting. Really very interesting. :) And judging the time right now, also very interesting. I better get my ass to bed if not I'll be super tired when I wake up! Dinner at Shogun, 1 Utama! I'm waiting! :D Whee~~

Chinese New Year!

A quiet first day. As we were preparing to travel back to KL in the morning, father's friend and family came to visit. We chit chatted for awhile then as they left, we left to travel back to KL. I can say it was a smooth ride back to KL but a really scary traffic for those who are heading north.

See? From KL to Kampar, Perak. It's that bad.

I was so happy to be comfortably back home and of course, the internet. :D But it was for a short while. After that, my mother came and took both my brother and I out for dinner at her friend's place. Open house! And I like the fried meehoon there. :) Filled my stomach after 2 days of having Steamboat for dinner.


So I practically stuffed my stomach. More on the orange juice though. And occasionally, on the snacks that are visible on the table. Crap. So let's see me gain weight this CNY. :/