Iridescent by Linkin Park.

When you were standing in the wake of devastation
when you were waiting on the edge of the unknown
with the cataclysm raining down, insides crying save me now
you were there and possibly alone.

Do you feel cold and lost in desperation
you build up hope, but failure's all you've known
remember all the sadness and frustration
and let it go, let it go.

And in the burst of light that blinded every angel
as if the sky had blown the heavens into stars
you felt the gravity of temper grace falling into empty space
no one there to catch you in their arms


Do you feel cold and lost in desperation
you build up hope, but failure's all you've known
remember all the sadness and frustration
and let it go, let it go.

lyrics source

Sometimes I think I portray what I want people to think of me instead of being myself. I write about things I want people to see and think about me. It's sort of creating a story about me, about who I am but instead, I start to question myself. Is that who I am or is it who I want to be?

It's so easy how I sink into such a depressing mood. I'm so tired right now I can drop dead any moment. My panda eyes are so obvious right now. There are just so many questions in my head, making me wonder who am I exactly? Am I showing what I want to be? Or is it who I am? Suddenly, I am fighting my own demons, crying silently inside, hoping someone would notice. I'm breaking apart. I guess I am really breaking apart. I have no idea what am I doing, or rather why am I doing it. Then suddenly, I can't seem to remember who I was, or who I am supposed to be.


Who am I? Some deep thinking needs to be done. Some control over myself is needed. Control over my emotions, my feelings, my thoughts. Reminding myself over and over again. Self-control, before I really lose everything.


Linkin Park's song Iridescent would be a song just nice for my mood right now. Remember all the sadness and frustration. And let it go. Let it go.

Infatuation kills.

SPCA Day!

I have always wanted to visit the animal shelter and now that I have done so, I am so going back there!

Sorry about the ugly face.

It was a nice day. The sun hid behind the clouds! There's pretty much lots of work to be done such as cleaning out the old newspaper and replacing it with new ones. Some of the cages were pretty smelly. =S Got to make sure every caged doggie has a bowl of water to drink too! At first I thought there were going to be no puppies and all grown dogs but I was wrong. Spotted some really hyper puppies! They were trying to get out of the cage while I was placing newspapers! Such rascals even overturned the bowl of water I gave them! Haha.

I like this doggie.

Some were really obedient. Once newspapers were being placed, they trotted into their cage without being told to do so! Got to love them. It's really such a pity to see so many dogs in that compound and nothing I could do to give them a better place. From big dogs to small doggies, all kinds can be found. First feeding time was dog food for the smaller dogs. Especially the puppies. So we went round taking the food and feeding those small dogs.

Every doggie needs a loving home.

Shower shower~

I even helped to bath some of the dogs! Especially those female dogs, both spayed and unspayed. Got to be real careful not to get water into their ears! Made a friend, temporary. Haha. Did not get his name. Second round of feeding comes. This time it was dog food mixed with rice for the adult dogs.

Yes. Big pot of food to distribute to all the dogs.

I will be going back once again on the 10th of July. This time I will be going alone or with friends. Who wants to go along, contact me and make sure you are willing to work and not just stand around!

"Animals are humans just like us in a different shape and form, so do not abuse them.
- Anonymous "

Crab Island.

A day trip to Klang. I had to drive. Ish. Not that I don't want to, but if I can don't need to drive I would be happy. Don't have to worry and turn my black hair white. Anyways, it's just a short post here. Photos are not ready to be viewed yet. So I'll make it short, since there's not much that we did except for walking around and snapping our cameras to exhaustion.



24th June 2011. A one day trip travelling all the way to Klang just to sit half an hour in a boat ride to Ketam Island (which I prefer to call it), to see our site, walk around under the scorching sun, taking in the breath-taking scene of those fishing villages and everything that come with it - mudskipers, siput, crabs, mud, boats, fishing nets, wooden pondok, dogs, illegal satellite dish, bicycles, antique foosball table, little fishes, rubbish etc~



Initial plan was to stay over a night to see their night activities. In the end, nobody overnight. =.= But everybody came back with a little sun burn, darker skin, tired body and who knows what else! Had to kesian those who took the KTM. I heard it was terrible, horribly bad. But overall, I hope this was a small trip everyone enjoyed because I know I like it. ^^

I did enjoy myself. Though the weather is hot, and I was so tired that I went straight to bed once I landed my two feet in my room. At least I know now how this crab island looks like. Beautiful place, well, minus the rubbish.

Next up, SPCA day!

Lack of sleep makes a person die early.

Ok. Screw the title. But research shows that it's true. No idea. Bad for us architecture people. Because we really are sleep deprived.

Anyways, just a quick update here before I drag myself to the bed.


I have been cracking my head, working on my first project for this semester for a whole 2 weeks. And I am not even done right now because I had to re-draw my presentation board. Right. Next, my model is bloody tough to construct, therefore construction come to a halt right now. Blah.

This coming friday is off to Pulau Ketam to survey the site for the upcoming project. "Do not think in the box, think out of the box". Some title this project is. Go figure. Blah.


Right now, I am so tired and sleepy but I am working on something else for my dear boyfriend who's work is due later. I want to hit the sack. ZZzzzZZzzzz~

Darn circular shape!

Had this to accompany me for tonight.

Though it was gone within a few seconds. =P

I am feeling terribly sad right now. Stressed. I have got no idea how the hell am I going to start making my model.

"Less is more" by Ludwig Mies van der Rohe.

Maybe this way is better.

To achieve this, one must do it the Sou Fujimoto way.

Which is this.

Hundreds of models.

Well, at least there were hundreds of people helping to do those models. I do not have hundreds of me.

Current state of my study model.

Sleep now, continue when I wake up.
Good nights~

"Going back to the corner where I first saw you"
- The Man Who Can't be Moved, The Script.

My soul is with you.

Sometimes I think I am better off with you guys rather than being where I am right now.

but of course, I can't because I chose this path.

It isn't what I like, it's what I love,

I guess I am going to take time off and blog, before I do not have the chance to do so. Semester has started. Assignments Projects, as we architecture students would call it, projects which keep us up all night and asleep when the sun shines up high, projects which makes our brains burst to come up with something good. Projects after projects that will come at us for the entire semester.

Now, before I hit the sack, I want to share a few things here that I found! Check out her blog here - Hong Yi. I love the way she writes! Which makes me have this urge to blog right now when I am supposed to be in bed, dreaming. This is the 2nd week of my semester and Project 1 is in process! I feel like I am killing my brain cells trying to come up with a concept and fixing the stupid expandable part of my structure. It's always about the concept. Go figure.

I am in need of sleep right now. I can feel my brain shutting down. Damn. It's going to be another hectic semester. I really must make it up for last semester where I slacked off. I totally screwed up last semester, slacking, emo-ed, cried, panic-ed, not to mention those sleepless nights and still unable to complete. Sucks real bad.

I am currently in my second year and second semester, and I have got to say that I am loving architecture more and more! I know, that sometimes I complain there's so much work to be done, or there's just no time for sleep or myself! But it's all good because I know, this is what I want to do and I will do it good. It's hard work, I know, and I know that I will pull through. =) Demanding as this course may be, but I love it anyways.

At the moment, I am feeling this way.

Bahh~
And its not even half the semester.

To end this crazy post, here is something I found on the same blog I mentioned above. For all you archi students out there, sharing is caring! =)

Some architorture humour to crack you archi students up!

If you are architecture students you’ve probably experienced:
-the taste of wood glue
-you get annoyed when people tell you to “go to sleep” or “do you still have a lot of work?” (!!!)
-your friends and you don’t have the same concept of work, ie “oh, you have homework? Well you can do it right before class…” (No way will this ever happen!)
-you’ve slept more than 20 straight hours on weekends
-you can easily discuss with authority the effects of caffeine on different drinks
-no matter the effort you put in a project, somebody will always say “why don’t you add this? or “why don’t you change this here? or “i think that…but…yeah, its ok?” (and that ‘somebody’ is my design tutor…grrr)
-whenever you get invited somewhere, it is followed by “or do you have a lot of homework?”
-your worst nightmare consists of not finishing a project
-someone once called you “lazy” and you wanted them murdered (lol. oh my goodness SO TRUE!!!)
-you can live without human contact, sunlight, food, but if your plotter’s ink runs out… chaos!!! (*nods*)
-when somebody lends you a Bic pen you look down at it
-you’ve gained the ability to sleep in whatever surface: pencils, keyboards, backpacks, your studio mates, food, etc (lol. sigh…)
-when you finally have free time to go out you keep thinking “who was the fool who designed the restaurant’s bathroom? “who designed this menu?” or “who designed this [chair, table, lighting, fork, etc]?”
-you’ve been at many sunrises, yet you’ve never really experienced one
- “You’re in architecture? Well…it was nice to meet, you, but I’ll probably never see you again.”

For more humour, visit Hong Yi

I think I need a room re-vamp.