30 Day challenge.

CHALLENGE ACCEPTED! :D

Alright. It's time to take up this challenge. :) This has been in my blog draft for a very long time. Looking back, I should just take up this challenge. Why I did not start as soon as I found this?

I guess I wasn't daring enough to blog about some topics. Or maybe I just ain't that free to keep up with this challenge. But I guess it's time. Since year 2011 is coming to an end, it's a good thing to reflect back on everything that has happened and welcome a new year once again. :)

Challenge starts tomorrow! Here goes nothing! Cheers!

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I build up walls. To protect my heart from the cruel world.

Fall in love with me.

"Fall in love with someone who deserves your heart , not someone who plays with it."



You played it well.
Forgotten everything we almost had.
Like nothing ever happened.
Good game.



You don't deserve me anyways.
I'm out of your league. ;)



"When u make a promise to someone, there's something almost sacred about it.
Keep your word and people will respect u for it."

There's nothing better then revenge. ;)

Nike 10K run.

It's your city. Run it.



NIKE WE RUN KL 10K : CONQUERED!

I'm so proud of myself! First I jogged with a very constant pace all the way to 5KM. And I managed to complete the whole 10KM within the time limit! :D My first time taking part in a race like that. I'm proud of myself and my buddy Chia Ning for doing so well this morning! :D Thumbs up for us both first timers! :D

It was so crowded in the morning! A sea of orange-red shirt people everywhere! I see that colour even when I close my eyes! =S The crowd was huge. The amount of people turned up for the run was amazing. Sadly, the road wasn't big enough for so many people to run. Over-crowded I would say.

The sea of orange-red crowd.

Throughout the whole 10KM, there wasn't a stretch that was clear. It was filled with orange-red people at every inch of the road. Uphill, downhill, across the road. It was not so tiring after all. But my feet were hurting. Legs are fine though. But once I started walking at 5KM, my legs were automatically telling me to just keep running. It sort of programmed itself to just keep pacing.

The sea of orange-reds.
Blur though.

It took me about 1 hour and 40 minutes to reach the finish line. My father said it was slow. :( Well I guess it is. I will improve my timing the next round. :) Never try, never know. Glad that I registered. Glad that I went for trainings. Glad that I came, and glad that I conquered! =P

My QS.

My ME.

An awesome day.
With awesome people.
Now I know. ;)

KL. It's my city.

I ran it. :)

Never try, never know.

Run! Run! Run!

Oh by the way, I have completed my challenge! One week is finally over and I finally can satisfy my itchy hands on whacking people! So not used to not whacking or scolding people. =P

Well, another challenge down. Next up, to complete the Nike We Run KL 10K. My first time running for such an event, so not prepared. Time to sleep now. :) Training tomorrow! Need to gear up! Run! :)

Just do it!

Don't forget. ;)

那些年，我們一起追的女孩。

电影是好看，听别人说，很感动，看完会流泪。但我仅然一至笑，无心啊！ 我是个没了心的女孩。心已给丢了，扔到一个自己也找不到的地方。真的累了，把心丢了，都是因为不想在被伤害。不用太关心，不用被感动，也不用感觉到心的疼。我不追求完美，只追求快乐。勇气，终于到了终点。但，我已经没那个勇气去喜欢一个人了。

这部戏，对我念中学时刻没什么映像，但对大学的一段时期有映像。 看了这部戏， 有些画面，使我想起你。那短暂时刻，是多么开心。

上个学期大考，我会那么努力读书，都是因为你。
平时不吃饭的我，因为你，现在会定时吃饭，不敢饿肚子了。
原本不会照顾自己的我，现在会好好的看顾身体了。
是因为你，我也学会了把心给丢了，不去寻找。
现在，也学会了如何一个人生活。

有时， 喜欢一个人，并不一定要拥有。祝福他／她，只要他／她快乐，就是很开心的事了。想告诉你，告诉我你没有忘记。 没有忘记当是你给我的温柔和体贴，没有忘记你曾给我的快乐。

喜欢就喜欢了，没得回头。
被你喜欢过，就会觉得其他人没有那么喜欢我。
“谢谢你喜欢我。”

Rating : 8/10

也许在另一个平行时空,我们是在一起的。

人生中发生的每一件事都有它的意义。

Architecture 101 : 5.

5. Solid-void theory is the three-dimensional counterpart to figure-ground theory. It holds that the volumetric spaces shaped or implied by the placement of solid objects are as important as, or more important than, the objects themselves.

A three-dimensional space is considered a positive space if it has a defined shape and a sense of boundary or threshold between in and out. Positive spaces can be defined in an infinite number of ways by points, lines, planes, solid volumes, tress, building edges, columns, walls, sloped earth, and innumerable other elements.

From 101 Things I learned in Architecture School by Matthew Frederick.

人海中遇見你。

"有没有试过在人海中，一眼望过去，看得见的，只有他／她?"





仿佛其他人不存在。





那种感觉，多么幸运，也是种幸福。

把我曾给你的爱，珍藏在心里面，不让它随风而飘散。

The Hardest Thing by Tylar Ward.

A still frames photograph of you, and me together.
Is all I have of you and me anymore.
We were so in love and we thought it'll last forever.
But in the storm, we were torn.

And I won't forget you, don't regret you. And the hardest thing I've had to do is live without you.
And i wonder why we both walked away.
I'm lost without you, still crazy for you.
Just turn around, come back because your smile is overdue
And I miss, I miss you.

If I'd only knew the words to say that would make you turn around (turn around)
I'd say those words to you more than a million times.
It's been forever, but that hasn't changed what you mean to me.
Darling can't you see? (can't you see?)

And I won't forget you, don't regret you. And the hardest thing i've had to do is live without you.
And I wonder why we both walked away.
I'm lost without you, still crazy for you.
Just turn around, come back because your smile is overdue
And I miss, I miss you.

Im sorry for all I did, what I said and things I hid and I'm finally over me..
Is that too late for you?
I can't imagine where I'd be
If you had never rescued me
You gave me what it is, now I need you.
Cause I need you!

And I won't forget you, don't regret you. And the hardest thing i've had to do is live without you.
And i wonder why we both walked away.
I'm lost without you, still crazy for you.
Just turn around, come back because your smile is overdue
And I miss, I miss you.

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The hardest thing.



Is to pretend everything is alright even if it isn't.
Torn by the storm.

A picture of us in my memory pocket.

11.11.11

Somehow, I just need to blog. On this auspicious date.

11.11.11

For those who were looking forward for this day, its finally here! Whether it's a day of joy, or a day of sadness, some just want to remember this day. Some look forward to celebrating this very day with someone special, and for some, it's just another day. However you want to look at it, it's going to be another day fill with either surprises, or a routine that you never break.

For me, it's just going to be another day filled with work. I have been facing Autocad until my eyes are so freaking tired. I can't wait to complete the drawings I have on my hands and start model making again. :D Everything seemed rushed now. Everything is due either this week or next. I'm also under the pressure to complete the work I have on my hands, yet at the same time, so freaking lazy to do. Bad.

11.11.11

What are you gong to do? And when the clock strikes 11:11AM/PM, what are you going to do within that minute before the needle hits 11:12AM/PM? I know that for me, I wouldn't even know that 11:11AM has past and I would put it down in my history books on what I did on 11:11PM. :) Auspicious as it sounds, it's just another day just like any other.

Everybody deserves a second chance. Everybody deserves another try. Life is not just about celebrating auspicious day like this, but about celebrating every single day you lived through.

Just live like you've got one night. ;)

Nobody deserves to be to be treated like shit.

Time vs Creativity.

That's it people.

"Creativity is not inspired by the pressure of time,
but by the freedom, the playfulness, and the fun."




Though my creativity level is still zero. T__T

Art rules.

Challenge #1 - Soft-spoken me?

I will remember this date - 8th Nov 2011.
For it is the day I challenged my friends to challenge myself.

Before this year comes to an end, I vouch to do something that I wouldn't have done in years. The picture shows my very first challenge. I say, why think? When you can just do? Life ain't interesting when you don't challenge yourself, and not fun when you don't let your friends know so that they can laugh at you. :D

15 LIKES - 1 day.
30 LIKES - 1 week.
100 LIKES - 1 month.

Cheers to me.
Challenge accepted.
I have to be freaking soft-spoken for a week.
Hurrah.

Remember, I am unique. ;)

Time; it's gone.

Time;
it does not stop for anyone,
not even the greatest.

One moment so happy, the next it's gone.
One moment something happened, the next everything changed.
One moment, everything will be different within seconds.

Time,
waits for no man.
Not even the mightiest.

Wish you could stop time when you are with that special someone?
Praying that time would stop so that you could do something?
Hope that time would stand still so that everything stays the same?

Every second the hands tick past, those are the seconds you can't get back. Watching the sun set over the horizon, you wish time would let you stay in that moment forever. Why do I always carry around that big bulky DLSR wherever I go? Why is it that I take all sorts of pictures, even ugly ones? There's a reason behind every words, a story behind that smile, and a reason for every action made. Why do I even bother to make a challenge for myself? Why even bother posting it on Facebook? Nobody would bother to wonder or ask.

Watching the clock hands tick, I wonder should I even bother to explain myself? Is it worth wasting time explaining to people when they wouldn't even give a shit about how you feel? Absolutely not. Attention whore. Publicity stunt. Why care what people think? I do this, I'm looking for attention. I don't do that, I am also looking for attention. Stereotypes. There'll be only that handful of people that are willing to stick with you through thick and thin. Time is all you need to find people like that.

Time,
what we need and what we don't.
It's up to us.
Maybe time is what I do not have.
Maybe time is all I've got.
There's no stopping time,
but only to walk with it,
to run with it.
Every moment spent, is a moment worth cherishing,
Bad or good, it's time that we can't have back.
Time, will never stop.

Capture every moment before it leaves your sight.

Walking forward.

The fog has been lifted.

I finally got to know why I was in such and uptight mood recently, beside having a minor accident. But that's not the point. The fog seemed to have lifted. Sunshine shine through. The thinking came.

我努力假裝現在過得很好
現在的你看來已不需要我

I finally realized all this while it did not cross my mind, to ask how are you, to even want to know anything about you. Even if it's just months, or weeks that I last saw you or heard from you. I used to care, too much, that I ended up hurting myself instead. And because of a song, I start to wonder why. Normally I wouldn't even wonder, but this song 周杰倫 - 你好嗎 got me wondering what is wrong.

現在我試著習慣一個人過
也許你已經開始新的生活

The fact that my heart has died makes so much sense to why I did not even bother to ask or even wonder how are you. I couldn't even care less to what are you up to now, or who's by your side. This song made me realized that sometimes, you might just want to ask, how are you, to know that they are doing fine without you hurts, but that's what that will make you move on better as well. But for me, it just didn't cross my mind to even want to know.

"A broken heart can be healed with time.
There's no such thing as nothing can mend a broken heart.
It just depend on time to make everything feel alright again.
But yes, scars will remain, to remind you of how your heart got broken.
Nothing is perfect in this world, and getting your heart broken is one of the phrases that we have to go through in order to know that time is the best medicine to heal a broken heart."

Those were my own words. And I'm pretty surprised that I put it that well. A broken heart is what changes people, and the only thing that can heal a broken heart is time. In short, pain makes people change. Though I felt no pain, but I will remember the lesson I have learned. Somehow, I have got no freaking idea why this effected me the most. I guessed it's because of those unspoken words we had. About what we almost had.

也許在不同的時空
還牽著 你的手

Sometimes, I wanted to scold you, get upset, be angry for all that you have done to me, because I do not deserve it. Maybe it would make me feel better. But worse of all, I do not deserve to be treated like a toy. You know you don't deserve my forgiveness. I deserve much better than what you gave me. I'm worth more than one touch, one kiss can buy. Now, I live with knowing the fact that flashbacks can happen anytime, and that scares me. Because I have already experienced a flashback that shock every single cell within me.

Time flies. I might be able to forgive you, but I won't forget. You are not worth me wasting my time over again. I may think about you from time to time, but that does not mean I still have feelings for you. I may think about you from time to time, but that does not mean I miss you. We were just two similar person that were not meant to be together. Just be happy, that's what all matters. :)

I'm not brave anymore.
I'm broken.

如果两个人分手之后。

如果两个人分手之后做了朋友，那说明我从来没有爱过你 ；

如果两个人分手之后依旧可以做朋友做的事那说明我想让你记住我 ；

如果两个人分手之后我不再见你并大声说我恨你，那说明我不舍得离开你；

如果两个人分手之后我们在彼此的世界消失了，那说明我真的爱你。

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This is not entirely true.
Believe what you want to believe.
I'm just sharing. ;)

Don't be good to me.

Deep within my body, there lies my soul,
with the fire slowly inching its way round,
I feel the burn.
There's a feeling inside, that even words can't make out.
Such complication, clouds my mind,
words alone can do nothing to ease those demons.
Those feelings of lost, love, confusion, sadness, disappointment, hurt and anger,
all jumble up within, creating a mess.


Sometimes it's just so hard to make everything look so easy.

I don't wonder.

一个男人。

一个男人如果深爱一个女人，就愿意委屈自己，宽容你犯的错误。


一个男人如果在你面前开始计较他的尊严的时候，
那么他对你的爱也开始打问号，至少他自己开始不那么确信。

最后，他是不是深爱你，你会有感觉的。

当你开始疑问的时候，其实你的心已经明白答案，只是还不想承认。




一个男人爱你的时候总会觉得你笨，处处要他担心，

反之，不爱你的时候，会觉得你聪明伶俐，不劳任何人操心。




一个男人爱一个女人，再忙都会抽空打电话给那个女人。

有时候是发消息有时候是电话。




天冷给你暖手。

和很多人吃饭的时候会偷偷看你，在桌子底下偷偷拉你的手




在两个人吵架后，只要看到你哭，不管到底是谁的错，他再怎么大的火也没有了。

因为不让你伤心，才是真正重要的事，其他的，又算什么。

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Before I die - #2.

✔ Another checked. ;)

Yet there are still so many things on the list
which I don't think I will be able to achieve.

Got to try though. :)

For a pessimist, I'm pretty optimistic. :)

Bored to death?

Like the little boy above, that word is written all over my face.

Work has been pretty boring lately. Especially with my boss sitting right behind me! I feel the pressure. =( Was supposed to be blogging about something but heck, I can't remember, and it's time for me to sleep. Activities, full steam ahead! Just make sure I take care of my pockets.

Oh, and take good care of myself. :) Have been eating like nobody's business recently. Hee~ I am so loving my life right now. Except working life. It's lifeless. I so need to exercise. Dedicating my Saturday to swimming and basketball. Looking forward to it! Woohoo~!

Now, time for bed.

Those flashbacks still haunts me.

熟悉的画面。

这个熟悉的画面让我浮现以前甜蜜的回忆~






晚安~

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忘了我。

你忙，忘了我需要人陪；
你忙，忘了我会寂寞；
你忙，忘了我在等你电话；
你忙，忘了你对我的承诺。


但你知不知道，爱情不是等你有空的时候，再去珍惜的。

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Flashbacks.

Unexpectedly revisited.

Re-experiencing.

Flashbacks happens.
And the scariest part is, you don't know when it will happen.

She finally know how it feels. To have flashbacks. To have the past haunting her. All those stories about memories coming back to haunt you, the past taping on your shoulders, she thought it was because you were thinking about what had happened. But how wrong she was. It hits you when you least expect it.

What did you do to me?
Those moments just having you there, right beside me.
I have never heard silence quite this loud.

In the midst of doing work, mind focused on every move she made. Out of nowhere, BAMM! When she came to realization, she found herself stunned, unable to move, sitting there, staring into space. It took her a few minutes to actually realized what was going on. Those, were the worst memories, though nice, he was never hers to start with. Even the music she was listening to could not drown out those flashbacks.

It was like I was being transported back,
To that very day everything was still alright.
Yet there was something in the atmosphere.

Of all the memories, it was as though that particular memory had never left her mind. Why? She started to ask herself. Why must this particular memory flash across her mind, at that time? The realization of something that they almost had, in a blink of an eye, it's gone. Reality hits, back to work. But her mind, unable to focus. Those moments, every detail, just keeps replaying at the back of her mind.

Phone rings.
Irritatedly walked to the room next door.
Walked back to the room just to have you following behind.

Drowning out those memories, she turned to face her work. Her heart beats fast. How could flashbacks happened in the middle of the day? No warning at all, leaving that poor girl vulnerable. Body trembling, she hid it well from those preying eyes at the office. Slowly, but not completely, it starts to fade. Those feelings at that moment, so hard to pin down. Those memories, they slaughter you as they come.

Flashbacks.
They haunt me.

爱 是为彼此祝福