Have you ever want your summer love back by your side?
Have you ever thought about those times, when you both were so happy together? Have you ever thought about your summer fling and realized the feelings are still alive? Have you ever wonder?
That smile. That hug. That touch.
Summer is long over. It's too late to ask you to come back.
“Use your precious moments to live life fully every single second of every single day.” - Marcia Wieder.
"I think maybe there's so much divorce around these days because people do think about it to much. They want instant perfection and the one they are with doesn't live up to the ideal, they go off looking for one that does. But, there's a lot more to be said for someone who's reliable and dependable, and who doesn't have any fancy notions about the ideal romance. But these days, people are too busy chasing rainbows to realize that." - Wishful Thinking, Melissa Hill.
First day of class after such a long hiatus away from the campus! It's good to be back at Uni once again. There's just an indescribable feeling being back at Uni.
The weather is freaking hot recently, no doubt. Chinese New Year is coming! It means this hot spell will be around for at least a month! Gosh. With my long hair, this weather makes me want to chop my long hair short! Should I? =D It's tempting, but I doubt I can pull of a short hair look as good as I used to! Confidence level not really up to par but heck, I'm comfortable with myself right now. Many of my course mates had new haircuts, new glasses or dyed their hair. I can't wait to do mine! Was supposed to get a haircut before this CNY but failed. Well, I'll be getting a haircut soon. ;)
So, first day of class. What is up? The usual routine of briefing from lecturers, about how this semester is going to be like (2 projects! rejoice! But the workload is unbearable.), presentations on chosen architects, as well as presentations for my internship! We usually have a short briefing for all the Architecture students, which includes meeting the new students. But sadly, we missed the meetup.
Small celebration for a friend. (I just had to include this picture)
Chit chatted with a few mates, then it's dinner and supper with good friends! I even got a little surprise from a friend! Super awesome! =) Overall, it feels good to be back around Uni area. Somehow, there will be an indescribable feeling once you are no longer in Uni. For now, I'll make the best out of this last year!
Last minute work once again. *Bangs head on wall* Well, all because I didn't want to start doing my report. First of all, template for report writing is not decided. But screw all those confusion. I am already halfway through my report! Good lucks to me! No sleep for me!
Tonight. Was the night I really felt the need to find someone to talk to. Who knows what is going on. Someone who will understand what I will be babbling about. Someone who is not part of my family. Tonight was the night, I thought of you.
If only.
Frustration. Anger. Sadness. Disappointment. Rage. Pretend not to see, when everything was so clear. Pretend not to hear, when what you said was meant for me. There's only one word "tolerance" to tell myself. How long will this go on? Will this drag on for another few more years? How long can I hold on? Only I will know. It might be happening again, for all I know, this time will be worst. But I am stronger and I will survive this mental torture.
Now my top 3 main priority for this year will be 1. Studies 2. Family 3. Money
There won't be anymore space in my life, in my heart for others. Friends. Already in my heart. Work. It's all about time management. I will learn to manage my time. I will learn to survive. I will fail, and I will climb back up to succeed. I won't give up. I will hold on to what little faith I have of myself, to achieve my goals. Life, it's full of surprises. Embrace life fully, and be surprise with the rewards life will give in return. ;)
Can anybody hear me? Or am I talking to myself? - Astronaut, Simple Plan.
Well, I had that song stuck in my head for the entire day. I can't remember when was the last time I had the same song stuck in the head for the entire day. I was so tempted to sing aloud but I didn't know the lyrics very well, and it would be so embarrassing to sing aloud amongst a sea of unfamiliar faces. (Which I don't think I wouldn't care much, it's me having fun.)
Classes commencing on 16th January. A few more days and I am still not done with my internship report. I have just finish my orientation program, and it was fun! Lesser people, but it does not mean that lesser fun. Lesser people, still the same and more fun! :) In the end, I am glad that it's over. A few rough bumps in between, but I guess it was all worth it as we sailed through smoothly. Good job to my entire team. I'm proud of you guys! It might not be as fun as I had a year ago, but definitely will be part of a good memory and to add to my experience as a chairperson.
I pray that 2012 will be a fruitful year. Making a comparison with 2011, hoping that 2012 will be much better, happier, funnier, and the most wonderful last year at Uni for me. So many plans this year, I will have to work hard to achieve what I dream of achieving. So many goals, I will succeed, because I know how it is like to fail. there's nothing better than the feeling of achieving what you want. ;)
After this Day 5 post, I don't feel like continuing on. I took a look at the list and I just can't go on. I just don't feel like it. I am so not 100% a Glee fan 'til I can make up my own character if I were to star in the show, or even make up an episode! Gah. I don't have that time. So here, I end this challenge. -_-
My favourite duet would be from Season 2 Episode 18 - Born This Way.
I know I haven't been blogging properly for a very long time. My internship just ended, and I have my internship report to do, though I haven't, the slightest clue what to write in it. Let's start with my internship. How was it?
I would say it was fun! :)
Located at Soho KL, Solaris Mont Kiara. It was a high-end place. Everything was pricey to me! Was wondering how am I to survive 3 months when the amount of food intake for me is HUGE. I was super broke in December, but that's another story. So, I started my first day of intern on the 3rd of October 2011 at an architecture firm named LNL Sdn Bhd / MK Looi Architect. The firm was small but the staff was friendly. Bosses was nice too, occasionally. =P
I spent the first month making a model of a house, with other works in between. There were another two interns that came in with us. They were from KBU. It was very nice to know them. The following month saw another two interns from UCSI and me working on another model! The office became packed and I had to sit somewhere else, which is near to one of my bosses table!
My little workspace.
My back is literally facing my boss, so I can't see him looking at me. Pressure much!
I kinda slack, I admit, during the end of November, and throughout December. For I just can't wait for my internship to be over! Waking up early in the morning is just not my thing! I dreaded for my internship to end! Which resulted in me not enjoying my internship. Bad. But I find more freedom in working as well as appreciating the weekends fully! The last week of internship found me quite free but still was rushing to finish my work at the last day. At least I know, these 3 months has been good.
From left : Shi Jia, Shah, Ainul, Afieza, Jowen, Kwan Loong, Mohd, Adrian, Si Yuan, Ima, Helmy, Mavis & Josephine.
I've learned quite alot within this 3 months, which I know there are still plenty to learn! I thank my seniors and colleagues for being so patient with me, as well as my bosses for giving me the opportunity to learn as much as I need to. It was a pleasure knowing all of you.
This might not be a big company, or have the most friendliest staff, or even the best bosses you dreamed of, but as long as you work hard, your hard work will be recognized. This might not be the ideal work place you want, but as long as you accept what you have, everything will be good. I prefer small company like this, because I know, I can learn more. :)
From left : Adrian, Mark, Mavis, Jowen, Kwan Loong, Si Yuan, Shi Jia, Josephine, Helmy, Shah, Syafeq. Bottom : Jayz & yours truly.
Working is so different from studying, which I prefer. Thank you to my bosses Adrian and Mark for the guidance and the learning opportunity. Thank you to Helmy for being so patient and the guidance too. I would like to learn more if I have the chance.
We'll meet again. Soon. ;)
It doesn't end here. Life goes on even after you have gone.
An unexpected twist in the story leads to an ending that no one wanted.
I am a lost kid. I might turn lesbian. I smoke. I'm a bitch. I like to play teacher's pet. I like kissing girls.
There comes a point in life where you just have to stop, and reflect on the past. We often forget the things we should be remembering and remember what we are supposed to forget, don't we? Much too many times, we just forget to stop and smell the roses in the midst of rushing through life. I have been caught up with how wonderful life is, yet had no time to let it sink in. Instead, I ran with the wind.
Happy New Year!
It has been 4 days since the clock strike 12AM on January 1st 2012. Here I am, now taking a moment to smell the flowers, to reflect on the past year and how that year have been. I would say it hasn't been the finest year of my life. The start of 2011 was already a dreadful feeling. The first half of the year wasn't slow pleasant, but things were getting better after June. The last few months of 2011 was surprisingly fulfilling. So much crazy fun times and insane laughter, even though with dispute in between, good memories are what I am supposed to be remembering. :)
Life is not all sweet and happy. Life is not smooth. Life is a roller coaster which brings you up and down, through rough turnings and bumpy rides, but in the end, it's up to you how you choose to ride it. :)
February came, which saw the leaving of my ex to Australia to study for at least a year. I guess I only realized how dependent on him, I was without him by my side. It was the worst semester of my life as well. It was an emotional turbulence for me, I admit. My mind wasn't in the game. But despite those 4 years we had together, part of my heart knows, that I might not find a love like this anymore.
We might not be together anymore, but if we were meant to be together, 5 years down the road, we'll find our way back to each other.
I had to let you go, to let myself be free. I was too tired to continue a long distance relationship. I wasn't happy I felt tied down. I had to be free again, to be single. And with that, I finally got to breathe in that fresh air I was missing out.
The laughter of my friends. The times I spent late nights with a bunch of them just lending a helping hand.
Those crazy moment shared. Everything was worth it. Just seeing them smile, it's the best feeling.
To know that I stood up on my own two feet once again. Knowing that I don't have to lean on anybody.
To take care of myself without anyone's help. To love myself, and not to deprive myself of good things. To know that I deserve better.
The taste of single life after 4 years.
There comes a point in life, which I turn back and go, "Oh wells." At least I know, better than not knowing at all and going "What if?". The start of 2011 might have been rough, but through those rough times, came the smooth times at second half of the year.
First half of the year, I learned that,you have to stay true to who you are. Do not be a burden to others. Do not be afraid to speak your mind out. To stay strong even when there's no one to catch you when you fall. Learned to stay focus, and firm. Don't judge. And most important, Do not let others bring you down with the words they say behind your back.
Second half was fulfilling. I've learned to accept that people can change their minds in a blink of an eye. Learned to keep sweet, good memories, not the bad ones. Those crazy late night moments, never try never know. The sweetest moment was knowing that we were in sync. Appreciating everyone that has stepped or have been part of my life. Having fun and craziness like nobody's business. Learned to live by last minute decisions. Learning to enjoy life as it comes.
We might be a year older as time passes, when the new year comes. But it does not stop us from having the fun we want. Know what you want in life. Know what you want out of life. There might be ups and downs, but that's what makes life so much more interesting.Do not be afraid to make mistakes, or have that insane fun you always dream of having, because sometimes you only get one shot at doing what you want to do. ;)
I have no intention of stopping. I only have one life.
Be free, let your heart soar, open it up to life.
From Glee, We Are Young. Dedicated to those who finish reading this post.
To remind us that even we are aging every year, it does not mean that we are growing old. We can't be young forever, but we will always be young at heart.
Let's set the world on fire, we can burn brighter. There'll be no other moments like that to shine.
Remember, we only live once.
We don't stop playing because we grow old; we grow old because we stop playing.
She's so lovely. Plus I kinda like her character. How she handle her life from getting pregnant to turning her hair to pink and back again. Her voice is so nice as well! But I think she'd be my favourite female character because of her eyes. They are so mesmerizing. :)
