幸福意外。

I really, really didn't realized how stressed out I was until I look myself in the mirror.

Was I the same girl that used to smile and laugh at everything in life?

Was I that same old girl that go with the flow?

Was I the same girl that is happy-go-lucky?

Was I even the same girl who always feels like a small girl?

Was I EVEN that same old girl 3-5 years ago with that vibrant mind?

I lost myself while indulging in work.

I lost my passion, my interest in everything art.

I just lost my creativity to reality.

I didn't realized I was so stressed that my shoulder hurts. That pimples were popping out worse than ever. That shopping feels boring. That I am irritated at the slightest things that crossed my path. That I just feel like crying all the time. Even right now, as I type.

 Am I really that stressed?

The answer is so clear, only I myself refused to accept it.

Work. Has taken a toll on me. Friends tell me, if I'm not comfortable, if I'm not happy, quit. Saying is easy, but to do it, I have to think of the consequences. My responsibility is much bigger right now as I have started working. Reality strikes. 

I'm not as fun as I used to be anymore.

Even if we think we have not changed, but looking back, we can see the path we came through and how much we have changed to be who we are today, right now.

And I guess I miss me. 

The cheerful me.

The creative me.

That girl who is willing to take risks.

That girl, and her artistic side.

Not motivated. 

Not driven. 

And I thought I could have you to push me like how I motivated you. =/

幸福的意外太快 我像个傻瓜发呆

才发现公主和王子的梦已不存在

Evaulation on life.

Short post here. Need to rant.

Need a re-evaulation on life. 
Work is seriously taking a toll on me and I am disliking it all over again. 

Crossroad: to continue this trenching path or walk another road?

Re-think.

Re-evaulate.

But never can re-do.

Hark. The herald angels sings.

The First Noel.

"They looked up and saw a star  
Shining in the East beyond them far  
And to the earth it gave great light 
And so it continued both day and night."

- The First Noel

It's so beautiful.

Just so beautiful. 

No words can describe how much I feel about Christmas.

After watching the latest episode of Glee, I found out that Christmas is such a beautiful season. Everything about it spells peace, joy and so much more. Beautiful. Gorgeous. With just less 2 days to go before Christmas, I can't wait to wake up and smell the air on Christmas Day morning. Though it might be another normal day for me, as I do not celebrate the season, but I shall soak myself in the carols and decorations as well as the songs and atmosphere that's all around me.

I didn't expect for this Christmas to touch my heart so much. Moved by the songs, touched by the surprise gift, felt Christmas warmth my heart so much more than ever.

From last year,

"Until one feels the spirit of Christmas, there is no Christmas. All else is outward display--so much tinsel and decorations. For it isn't the holly, it isn't the snow. It isn't the tree not the firelight's glow. It's the warmth that comes to the hearts of men when the Christmas spirit returns again." - Unknown.

This year, 

"Remember, if Christmas isn't found in your heart, you won't find it under the tree" - Charlotte Carpenter

Wishing everyone a very very Merry Christmas this year!

Enjoy the Christmas songs like never before;

Soak in the Christmas season like never before;

Give and forgive, like always.

Merry Christmas and may all your wishes come true.

Have yourself a Merry little Christmas. ♥

Day by Day.

I really haven't been blogging. Gone were my days of blogging about food, or life, or whatever that interest me. All I got to say is that I need to keep my mind on work. And work is all I can think about. Sad as it sounds, it's my life right now.

Here are 10 things to highlight for the past one week.

1) Working overtime for the past one week. It's a new week again tomorrow. Wish me luck. =\

2) Spending the weekend with you is the best. ♥ Even if there's minimal communication throughout the week, or downs, it's always wonderful just having you by my side. ♥

3) Christmas is just a week away! Excited! Super duper excited! Although I do not have any plans for this Christmas, but I still LOVE Christmas! It's the most beautiful festive season of the year!! ^^ ♥ 

4) Looking forward to hit the malls for photoshooting! This year I'm really behind schedule! =( 

5) All my photos are really behind schedule. ALL. Sigh. Well, it's due to the fact that I do not turn on my computer anymore.

6) Sometimes I expect too much. In the end, I bring myself down for things I have done and not done. The way I disappoint myself is just plain pathetic. Got to not put high hopes and expectations on people.

7) Got that song. That song stuck in my head. THAT SONG. By Imagine Dragons - It's Time. Nice song. Really. =)

8) Have to hit the malls! The Curve! 1 Utama! Giza! Bangsar Village! Bangsar Shopping Centre! Times Square! Pavilion! Do I even have the time? =( I'm getting sadder each day by the thought of it. The decorations at The Curve is wonderful! T_T

9) Work. It's killing me. But I have to do it. Because I was born to do it, I was made for this kind of job, and I am cut out for this kind of work given. A year. I give it a year. Because I am planning to see the world.

10) I have to say I love the look on your face when I gave you that kiss. Tiptoed. That smile. That surprise look. Warmed my heart. I love surprises as much as you, but most of all, I love surprising people. It's happiness that filled my heart when I look at you. That moment, everything was perfect. ♥

Etched in my heart, that moment will be remembered.

This Christmas, that moment, the most wonderful moment of the year.

Loving you and all your little things. ♥

Don't forget to remember me.

Don't forget to miss me.

Don't forget, that I love you. 

Architecture 101 : 9

Sense of place
Genius loci literally means genius of place. It is used to describe places that are deeply memorable for their architectural and experimental qualities.

From 101 Things I learned in Architecture School by Matthew Frederick.