All I need is ʆʘѷΞ

Light up my world.

2012-02-04T02:35:00.000+08:00

Random post.

I'm going to put up the lights I have in my room soon. As soon as I figure out a good way to decorate my room with those lights. Love 'em. ;)

Spontaneity, freedom and flexibility.
These are some of the best things about being single.
You don't have to care about what the other half thinks of you when you want to do something.
You just do it.

Architecture 101 : 7

2012-02-04T01:23:00.004+08:00

7. Suburban buildings are freestanding objects in space. Urban buildings are often shapers of space.

When we create buildings today, we frequently focus our efforts on their shapes, with the shape of outdoor space a rather accidental leftover. These outdoor spaces, such as those typically found in suburbans, are negative spaces because the buildings aren't arranged to lend shape to the spaces in between.
Urban buildings, however, are often designed under the opposite assumptions: building shapes can be secondary to the shape of public space, to the extent that some urban buildings are almost literally "deformed" so that the plazas, courtyards, and squares that abut them may be given positive shape.

From 101 Things I learned in Architecture School by Matthew Frederick.

Our Story's Told.

2012-02-02T23:49:00.000+08:00

Standing there, as the breezy wind blew past, memories came floating back, as though the wind blew those memories into the head. Shadows of these memories can be seen dancing around that place - drinking in the peaceful night sky, they walked side by side. Their hands brushed each other, sending signals of shyness and awkwardness. It wasn't like they hadn't held hands, yet neither wanted to make a move - those memories, so strong yet so distant.

It's the memories that keeps those feelings alive. Hanging on to what seemed impossible, she tried to let go of what's not hers to begin with. That photo. That look. That touch. That song. Yet memories keeps floating back. Flashbacks. It scared her. Scary in the beginning, things were starting to fall into place. "Tell me goodbye", her heart whispered. At the least, a word goodbye would make it better. But no words was exchanged.

It was as though everything just happened only yesterday. To know that all was in the past, her heart sank. Remembering how they used to talk through the night without getting any sleep. Reminiscing how he saw her and a huge smile would appear on his face, or how those anxious feelings she felt when she can't wait to see him. People see them as a matching pair, so in sync, so in love.

One night, everything took a turn. Feelings that were felt affected their thoughts, and their decision. It wasn't who changed, but rather they grew apart. Hurt as they can be, everything fell apart. What was thought to be a good friendship turned sour. Hurt was shown all over her face, yet he acted like nothing happened. You're not the one for me, was all that was written on a wall, and having to stumble upon those writings, it hurt more. So many questions, so many.

Now, walking along that stretch, being at that area, those shadows no longer danced their way to her mind. The wind no longer blow those pictures into her head. Songs that reminded her of him, no longer seem a threat. Looking at that face in pictures, no longer creates an emotion. Raw emotions no longer stain her heart. The past will never tapped her shoulders again.

Sometimes, we don't need words to know.

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I started writing and stopped. After that, it was this song that inspired me to continue this little story of mine. I would like to try out story writing, but I'm afraid my stories aren't as solid to what I read in books. I hope you people enjoy reading and enjoy the song! There's always room for improvement. ;)

Our story's told
It's time for goodbye
This room is cold
There's nowhere to hide

Take a bow and strike the stage
Shows are over today
Grab your jacket as you leave
Thanks for coming, you're free

Underneath that smile, there lie thousands of unspoken words, tears, sorrow and pain.

Lights & colours.

2012-02-02T01:02:00.005+08:00

Lights.

I gotten some lights initially was for an event at Uni but now I guess it'll be with me. And I played with it. Love the lights. ^^

Colours.

It's been a really long time since I sketched and colour! :)

Sometimes people think if they're single no one can hurt them...
but being single and thinking about memories can kill you.

Di akhir Januari.

2012-02-01T03:45:00.000+08:00

A short update.

Chinese New Year was good! Spent it in KL this year. Practically coped up at home doing nothing but work, Facebook, YouTube, work and more work.

Family dinners are a must to attend, which landed me having buffet dinner at Shogun twice a week.

Spent the Chinese New Year week making sure I do my work isn't easy, but I did some. And third week into the semester, work load feels like it's piling up.

Cutting down on social outings. I can't afford them unless someone would gladly pay for my meals and drinks. On the other hand, I can't afford socializing already, not when I'm all focused on bringing up my grades.

Last but not least, I pray to God : Please help make the event UTAR FEStival Tiki Hawaii run smoothly and as planned. I'm part of the organizing team and would really love to have the support of everyone.

Come one, come all!

It's an annual event that's not be missed! This time it's at night, much more fun! :)

Make sure I see you there! :)

Now, to bed I go.
Nights.

Being single doesn't mean that you are weak, it means that you are strong enough to wait for what you deserve.

By choice.

2012-01-30T01:47:00.000+08:00

Will you teach me how to fall in love with you again?

Can you teach me how to open my heart up to you once again?

I'm single by choice, and I will continue to be till I meet someone that deserves me.

Knock on the door.

2012-01-29T19:05:00.000+08:00

Remember the knock-knock game we use to play?

*knock*knock*

Who's there?

Boo.

Boo who?

Why are you crying?

Well, this suddenly came into my mind.

*knock*knock*

Who's there?

Love.

Love who?

Love me. ;)

It just came into my mind. I guessed I was inspired in a certain way. :)
Love me as I am. Love me for who I am. Love me when I needed it most.

"By persistently remaining single a man converts himself into a permanent public temptation." - Oscar Wilde

Summer love.

2012-01-22T01:19:00.001+08:00

Have you ever want your summer love back by your side?

Have you ever thought about those times, when you both were so happy together?
Have you ever thought about your summer fling and realized the feelings are still alive?
Have you ever wonder?

That smile.
That hug.
That touch.

Summer is long over.
It's too late to ask you to come back.

“Use your precious moments to live life fully every single second of every single day.” - Marcia Wieder.

Architecture as a whole.

2012-01-22T00:21:00.000+08:00

UTAR ARCHi BATCH i: Point No. 2,3,4,5,15 and 34 is specially pick for ...: Point No. 2,3,4,5,15 and 34 is specially pick for each an everyone of you. Point No. 7,10,16 and 17 is for you as a class. Point No 24 is ...

Stop dreaming, start living.

2012-01-20T03:21:00.000+08:00

"I think maybe there's so much divorce around these days because people do think about it to much. They want instant perfection and the one they are with doesn't live up to the ideal, they go off looking for one that does. But, there's a lot more to be said for someone who's reliable and dependable, and who doesn't have any fancy notions about the ideal romance. But these days, people are too busy chasing rainbows to realize that."
- Wishful Thinking, Melissa Hill.

迷宮。

2012-01-18T03:19:00.000+08:00

Talking about you, I suddenly realized something.

I miss you.

And most importantly,
I miss your company.

“Love is two minds without a single thought.” - Philip Barry

Hot spell.

2012-01-17T03:36:00.000+08:00

First day of class after such a long hiatus away from the campus! It's good to be back at Uni once again. There's just an indescribable feeling being back at Uni.

The weather is freaking hot recently, no doubt. Chinese New Year is coming! It means this hot spell will be around for at least a month! Gosh. With my long hair, this weather makes me want to chop my long hair short! Should I? =D It's tempting, but I doubt I can pull of a short hair look as good as I used to! Confidence level not really up to par but heck, I'm comfortable with myself right now. Many of my course mates had new haircuts, new glasses or dyed their hair. I can't wait to do mine! Was supposed to get a haircut before this CNY but failed. Well, I'll be getting a haircut soon. ;)

So, first day of class. What is up? The usual routine of briefing from lecturers, about how this semester is going to be like (2 projects! rejoice! But the workload is unbearable.), presentations on chosen architects, as well as presentations for my internship! We usually have a short briefing for all the Architecture students, which includes meeting the new students. But sadly, we missed the meetup.

Small celebration for a friend.
(I just had to include this picture)

Chit chatted with a few mates, then it's dinner and supper with good friends! I even got a little surprise from a friend! Super awesome! =) Overall, it feels good to be back around Uni area. Somehow, there will be an indescribable feeling once you are no longer in Uni. For now, I'll make the best out of this last year!

Last year, last chance.

Stop dreaming, start living.

Report writing.

2012-01-15T03:16:00.000+08:00

Late nights again!

Last minute work once again. *Bangs head on wall* Well, all because I didn't want to start doing my report. First of all, template for report writing is not decided. But screw all those confusion. I am already halfway through my report! Good lucks to me! No sleep for me!

"Hang in there."
;)

Have faith.

Underneath Your Love.

2012-01-14T13:03:00.001+08:00

A very nice little short film.

Enjoy! :)

A love story should never have a happy ending, because real love stories never end.

Believe & Faith.

2012-01-14T03:30:00.000+08:00

Anything can be done, the first step is to believe.

If you just believe, anything is possible. :)

"Faith is to believe what you do not see;
the reward of this faith is to see what you believe"
- Saint Augustine.

Matthew Sia Guen Ju, thank you so much. ;)

Friends; some know when you need them. ;)

Nothing is perfect on this planet.

2012-01-13T23:59:00.000+08:00

爱不代表一切
再真心也会被阻绝
- 学不会,林俊杰

Tonight. Was the night I really felt the need to find someone to talk to. Who knows what is going on. Someone who will understand what I will be babbling about. Someone who is not part of my family. Tonight was the night, I thought of you.

If only.

Frustration. Anger. Sadness. Disappointment. Rage. Pretend not to see, when everything was so clear. Pretend not to hear, when what you said was meant for me. There's only one word "tolerance" to tell myself. How long will this go on? Will this drag on for another few more years? How long can I hold on? Only I will know. It might be happening again, for all I know, this time will be worst. But I am stronger and I will survive this mental torture.

Now my top 3 main priority for this year will be
1. Studies
2. Family
3. Money

There won't be anymore space in my life, in my heart for others. Friends. Already in my heart. Work. It's all about time management. I will learn to manage my time. I will learn to survive. I will fail, and I will climb back up to succeed. I won't give up. I will hold on to what little faith I have of myself, to achieve my goals. Life, it's full of surprises. Embrace life fully, and be surprise with the rewards life will give in return. ;)

假装看不见，假装听不到；只有一句 “忍” 可对自己说。

Astronaut.

2012-01-12T09:42:00.000+08:00

Can anybody hear me? Or am I talking to myself?
- Astronaut, Simple Plan.

Well, I had that song stuck in my head for the entire day. I can't remember when was the last time I had the same song stuck in the head for the entire day. I was so tempted to sing aloud but I didn't know the lyrics very well, and it would be so embarrassing to sing aloud amongst a sea of unfamiliar faces. (Which I don't think I wouldn't care much, it's me having fun.)

Classes commencing on 16th January. A few more days and I am still not done with my internship report. I have just finish my orientation program, and it was fun! Lesser people, but it does not mean that lesser fun. Lesser people, still the same and more fun! :) In the end, I am glad that it's over. A few rough bumps in between, but I guess it was all worth it as we sailed through smoothly. Good job to my entire team. I'm proud of you guys! It might not be as fun as I had a year ago, but definitely will be part of a good memory and to add to my experience as a chairperson.

I pray that 2012 will be a fruitful year. Making a comparison with 2011, hoping that 2012 will be much better, happier, funnier, and the most wonderful last year at Uni for me. So many plans this year, I will have to work hard to achieve what I dream of achieving. So many goals, I will succeed, because I know how it is like to fail. there's nothing better than the feeling of achieving what you want. ;)

A toast, to a good start to the semester.
Cheers!

To succeed, you need to fail.

30 Day Glee Challenge - Day 5.

2012-01-05T17:21:00.001+08:00

Day 5 - Your favorite duet.

After this Day 5 post, I don't feel like continuing on. I took a look at the list and I just can't go on. I just don't feel like it. I am so not 100% a Glee fan 'til I can make up my own character if I were to star in the show, or even make up an episode! Gah. I don't have that time. So here, I end this challenge. -_-

My favourite duet would be from Season 2 Episode 18 - Born This Way.

I feel pretty/unpretty.

30 Day Glee Challenge

At the end of the day I have myself to blame.

Time after time.

2012-01-05T03:13:00.000+08:00

I know I haven't been blogging properly for a very long time. My internship just ended, and I have my internship report to do, though I haven't, the slightest clue what to write in it. Let's start with my internship. How was it?

I would say it was fun! :)

Located at Soho KL, Solaris Mont Kiara. It was a high-end place. Everything was pricey to me! Was wondering how am I to survive 3 months when the amount of food intake for me is HUGE. I was super broke in December, but that's another story. So, I started my first day of intern on the 3rd of October 2011 at an architecture firm named LNL Sdn Bhd / MK Looi Architect. The firm was small but the staff was friendly. Bosses was nice too, occasionally. =P

I spent the first month making a model of a house, with other works in between. There were another two interns that came in with us. They were from KBU. It was very nice to know them. The following month saw another two interns from UCSI and me working on another model! The office became packed and I had to sit somewhere else, which is near to one of my bosses table!

My little workspace.

My back is literally facing my boss, so I can't see him looking at me.
Pressure much!

I kinda slack, I admit, during the end of November, and throughout December. For I just can't wait for my internship to be over! Waking up early in the morning is just not my thing! I dreaded for my internship to end! Which resulted in me not enjoying my internship. Bad. But I find more freedom in working as well as appreciating the weekends fully! The last week of internship found me quite free but still was rushing to finish my work at the last day. At least I know, these 3 months has been good.

From left : Shi Jia, Shah, Ainul, Afieza, Jowen, Kwan Loong, Mohd,
Adrian, Si Yuan, Ima, Helmy, Mavis & Josephine.

I've learned quite alot within this 3 months, which I know there are still plenty to learn! I thank my seniors and colleagues for being so patient with me, as well as my bosses for giving me the opportunity to learn as much as I need to. It was a pleasure knowing all of you.

This might not be a big company, or have the most friendliest staff, or even the best bosses you dreamed of, but as long as you work hard, your hard work will be recognized. This might not be the ideal work place you want, but as long as you accept what you have, everything will be good. I prefer small company like this, because I know, I can learn more. :)

From left : Adrian, Mark, Mavis, Jowen, Kwan Loong, Si Yuan, Shi Jia, Josephine, Helmy, Shah, Syafeq.
Bottom : Jayz & yours truly.

Working is so different from studying, which I prefer. Thank you to my bosses Adrian and Mark for the guidance and the learning opportunity. Thank you to Helmy for being so patient and the guidance too. I would like to learn more if I have the chance.

We'll meet again.
Soon.
;)

It doesn't end here. Life goes on even after you have gone.

2012 - First wish.

2012-01-05T01:11:00.001+08:00

My first wish for this month.
This year.

That's right.
I have BIG plans this year. ;)

Never say never.

30 Day Glee Challenge - Day 4.

2012-01-04T15:09:00.003+08:00

Day 4 - Your favourite solo.

The best. I still love it. :)

From Season 2 Episode 16 - Original Song.

Get It Right.

30 Day Glee Challenge

How many times will it take for me to get it right?

Rumour has it.

2012-01-04T04:04:00.001+08:00

An unexpected twist in the story leads to an ending that no one wanted.

I am a lost kid.
I might turn lesbian.
I smoke.
I'm a bitch.
I like to play teacher's pet.
I like kissing girls.

There comes a point in life where you just have to stop, and reflect on the past. We often forget the things we should be remembering and remember what we are supposed to forget, don't we? Much too many times, we just forget to stop and smell the roses in the midst of rushing through life. I have been caught up with how wonderful life is, yet had no time to let it sink in. Instead, I ran with the wind.

Happy New Year!

It has been 4 days since the clock strike 12AM on January 1st 2012. Here I am, now taking a moment to smell the flowers, to reflect on the past year and how that year have been. I would say it hasn't been the finest year of my life. The start of 2011 was already a dreadful feeling. The first half of the year wasn't slow pleasant, but things were getting better after June. The last few months of 2011 was surprisingly fulfilling. So much crazy fun times and insane laughter, even though with dispute in between, good memories are what I am supposed to be remembering. :)

Life is not all sweet and happy.
Life is not smooth.
Life is a roller coaster which brings you up and down,
through rough turnings and bumpy rides,
but in the end,
it's up to you how you choose to ride it. :)

February came, which saw the leaving of my ex to Australia to study for at least a year. I guess I only realized how dependent on him, I was without him by my side. It was the worst semester of my life as well. It was an emotional turbulence for me, I admit. My mind wasn't in the game. But despite those 4 years we had together, part of my heart knows, that I might not find a love like this anymore.

We might not be together anymore,
but if we were meant to be together,
5 years down the road,
we'll find our way back to each other.

I had to let you go, to let myself be free. I was too tired to continue a long distance relationship. I wasn't happy I felt tied down. I had to be free again, to be single. And with that, I finally got to breathe in that fresh air I was missing out.

The laughter of my friends.
The times I spent late nights with a bunch of them just lending a helping hand.

Those crazy moment shared.
Everything was worth it.
Just seeing them smile, it's the best feeling.

To know that I stood up on my own two feet once again.
Knowing that I don't have to lean on anybody.

To take care of myself without anyone's help.
To love myself, and not to deprive myself of good things.
To know that I deserve better.

The taste of single life after 4 years.

There comes a point in life, which I turn back and go, "Oh wells." At least I know, better than not knowing at all and going "What if?". The start of 2011 might have been rough, but through those rough times, came the smooth times at second half of the year.

First half of the year,
I learned that, you have to stay true to who you are.
Do not be a burden to others.
Do not be afraid to speak your mind out.
To stay strong even when there's no one to catch you when you fall.
Learned to stay focus, and firm.
Don't judge.
And most important,
Do not let others bring you down with the words they say behind your back.

Second half was fulfilling.
I've learned to accept that people can change their minds in a blink of an eye.
Learned to keep sweet, good memories, not the bad ones.
Those crazy late night moments, never try never know.
The sweetest moment was knowing that we were in sync.
Appreciating everyone that has stepped or have been part of my life.
Having fun and craziness like nobody's business.
Learned to live by last minute decisions.
Learning to enjoy life as it comes.

We might be a year older as time passes, when the new year comes. But it does not stop us from having the fun we want. Know what you want in life. Know what you want out of life. There might be ups and downs, but that's what makes life so much more interesting. Do not be afraid to make mistakes, or have that insane fun you always dream of having, because sometimes you only get one shot at doing what you want to do. ;)

I have no intention of stopping. I only have one life.

Be free, let your heart soar, open it up to life.

From Glee, We Are Young.
Dedicated to those who finish reading this post.

To remind us that even we are aging every year, it does not mean that we are growing old.
We can't be young forever, but we will always be young at heart.

Let's set the world on fire, we can burn brighter.
There'll be no other moments like that to shine.

Remember,
we only live once.

We don't stop playing because we grow old; we grow old because we stop playing.

30 Day Glee Challenge - Day 3.

2012-01-03T13:05:00.004+08:00

Day 3 - Your favorite group performance.

This one.
From Season 3 Episode 8 - Hold On To Sixteen.

We Are Young.

Enjoy. ;)

30 Day Glee Challenge

Tonight
We are young
So let's set the world on fire
We can burn brighter than the sun

30 Day Glee Challenge - Day 2.

2012-01-02T12:57:00.001+08:00

Day 2 - Your favorite male character and why.

Darren Criss / Blaine Anderson

(I have got no idea why am I blogging on all these. Oh wells.)

Blaine! Handsome, has a good voice, and I like his character! It's hard play gay when you are straight in real life! Cheers!

30 Day Glee Challenge

"You think this is hard? I'm living with hepatitis, that's hard!" - Sue Sylvester.

30 Day Glee Challenge - Day 1.

2012-01-02T11:47:00.000+08:00

Day 1: Your favorite female character and why.

Dianna Agron / Quinn Fabray.

She's so lovely. Plus I kinda like her character. How she handle her life from getting pregnant to turning her hair to pink and back again. Her voice is so nice as well! But I think she'd be my favourite female character because of her eyes. They are so mesmerizing. :)

30 Day Glee Challenge

"You think this is hard? Try being waterboarded, that's hard!" - Sue Sylvester

30 Day Glee Challenge.

2011-12-31T22:20:00.001+08:00

Next up! I hope I do have time for this! Glee! :D

30 day Glee challenge

Day 1: Your favorite female character and why

Day 2: Your favorite male character and why

Day 3: Your favorite group performance

Day 4: Your favorite solo

Day 5: Your favorite duet

Day 6: Your favorite Finchel moment

Day 7: Your favorite Klaine moment

Day 8: Your favorite ship

Day 9: Favorite episode

Day 10: Least favorite episode.

Day 11: Which character are you most like?

Day 12: Least favorite character.

Day 13: Your favorite guest star.

Day 14: The Warblers or New Directions?

Day 15: Least favorite ship

Day 16: Which is your favorite season so far?

Day 17: Your favorite Glee merchandise you own?(Or want.)

Day 18: Favorite ‘holiday’ episode?(Very Glee Christmas, Etc.)

Day 19: Finchel or Puckerberry?

Day 20: Episode that makes you cry the most

Day 21: Your favorite friendship

Day 22: If you could change one thing about the show what would it be?

Day 23: If you could make up a episode what would you make it about?

Day 24: What would your Glee character be?

Day 25: What are you waiting for to happen on Glee?

Day 26: Who has a better fashion sense?

Day 27: If you were gonna audition for the Glee Club, what song would you sing?

Day 28: Your favorite Sue Sylvester moment.

Day 29: Have you ever met any of the Glee cast?

Day 30: Why do you like Glee?

Let's get started! :)

Oh.

And a very Happy New Year to you peeps out there!

Party hard, party safe! :)

New Year's Eve.

2011-12-31T17:54:00.001+08:00

It only happens once a year.
It's a time when hopeless can be romantic, and a resolution can become a revelation.
And when one night can change everything.

New Year's Eve.

Sometimes we wish we can wash away the past year, and focus on the new year that's coming. But sometimes, it ain't that simple. Today is just another day, like every other day. Yet once today is over, we find ourselves in the shoes of a whole new year - 2012. Here I am, sitting in the comfort of my own home, blogging away. It's the last day of 2011! Time do fly! And why am I blogging away when I could be somewhere else, doing something totally different and having fun? Because I've just watched New Year's Eve the movie and I love it! :) Not only the movie has so many famous stars in it, but it also teaches us that it's not only New Year's Eve that we have to learn to appreciate.

From Glee, Lea Michelle.

High School Musical sweetheart, Zac Efron.

(He looks so damn good looking in this movie.)

Katherine Heigl.

Halle Berry.

Chris 'Ludacris' Bridges.

Josh Duhamel.

Seth Meyers.

Robert De Niro.

Ashton Kutcher.

Michelle Pfeiffer.

and many more stars such as Hilary Swank, Jon Bon Jovi, Alyssa Milano, Jessica Biel, Russell Peters, Sarah Jessica Parker, Abigail Breslin, Jake T. Austin, Hector Elizondo, Michael Bloomberg, Matthew Broderick, and not to mention, Ryan Seacrest himself!

Synopsis
This movie, is just like Valentine's Day movie. It features the lives of several couples and singles in New York intertwine over the course of New Year's Eve.

There's always the ball drop at Times Square New York every New Year's Eve. In the movie, the ball got stuck halfway due to some electrical shortage. And what I actually like is the speech one of the character gave.

"It's suspended there to remind us before we pop the champagne and celebrate the New Year, to stop and reflect on the year that has gone by. To remember both our triumphs and our missteps - our promises made, and broken. The times we opened ourselves up to great adventures - or closed ourselves down, for fear of getting hurt. Because that's what New Year's is all about: getting another chance. A chance to forgive, to do better, to do more, to give more, to love more. And stop worrying about 'what if' and start embracing what would be. So when that ball drops at midnight - and it will drop - let's remember to be nice to each other, kind to each other. And not just tonight but all year long."

Let's slow down, pause, stop, to reflect on ourselves, for this year, the ups and downs, highs and lows. To remember what we have gone through this year, was it good enough, or was it something you can do better. We might not be able to turn back the hands of the clock to 2011 anymore, and 2012 is just another year, no different than the other. Let's enjoy these last few hours of 2011, before the clock strike twelve, have you fulfilled your resolutions for 2011? Have you done what you wanted to do before 2012 comes?

"Remember, second chances don't expire until midnight."

Rating : 8/10

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Happy New Year everyone!

“New Year's eve is like every other night; there is no pause in the march of the universe,
no breathless moment of silence among created things that the passage of another twelve months may be noted;
and yet no man has quite the same thoughts this evening that come with the coming of darkness on other nights”
- Hamilton Wright Mabie.

30 Day Challenge - Day 30.

2011-12-30T23:59:00.001+08:00

Day 30 - Your highs and lows of this month.

There's not much highs and lows. It's almost the same thing everyday, and without realizing it, time flies past! It's coming to an end now, year 2011. And soon, it's time to say hello to 2012.

I had a good Christmas. Basically the highs for this month would be Christmas, because I have been anticipating it since the end of November! =P But the lows of this month would definitely be money issues. It got me so stressed up because I was starting to owe people money! Was so freaking broke. Sigh.

I hope my money problems will end soon.
Hopefully.
*prays*

Let's all welcome year 2012. :)

and the end to my 30 Day Challenge! :D

"I think, therefore I'm single." - Liz Winston

30 Day Challenge - Day 29.

2011-12-30T15:59:00.001+08:00

Day 29 - Goals for the next 30 days.

Goals.

Complete internship report.

Prepare for presentation.

Have orientation event to go smoothly.

To collect good amount of Ang Paus for the upcoming Chinese New Year! =P

To have fun while working my ass off for the semester! :)

Oh. REMEMBER to save money! :)

30 Day Challenge

“If you want to live a happy life, tie it to a goal, not to people or things." - Albert Einstein

30 Day Challenge - Day 28.

2011-12-30T09:58:00.000+08:00

Day 28 - Something that you miss.

Think think. There's so many things that I miss. From my family to pets to friends and items. So many. I don't miss anything right now. But if I were to think of what I miss, I think it would be having pets. Reading what my friend posted on Facebook about her dog, I really felt the loss.

I miss having pets. Dogs especially. They are the only ones who will listen to you without judging, and still love you after listening to your rantings. I miss how my dog Gigi would listen to me, and still jump up to lick me in the face after. Those memories, hard to die. When I pretended to be dead, she would bark (A sharp bark mind you!) and jump on top of me and start licking me! Gosh. I really miss her. =(

Then there's Jo and Samson, and 5 puppies, which unfortunately, I don't get to see them grow up. The tears that sting her eyes and mine when I gave them away. That moment, forever etch in my mind. Jo was such a lovely dog. So cute when she was just a pup. Samson, he was a naughty one. Gosh. I can tear up right now. They were part of me, that it hurts so much I cried the whole day. Waking up to emptiness when you open the front door. I miss my doggies. I wish I can get them back.

It has been years since you all have left but always remember, you are always in my heart. Love you all.

I should get a dog again. But first, my house needs cleaning up. ><

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“A part of you has grown in me.
And so you see, it's you and me together forever and never apart,
maybe in distance, but never in heart.”

30 Day Challenge - Day 27.

2011-12-29T23:58:00.000+08:00

Day 27 - A problem that you had.

Eating problem? Is that even considered a problem? *laughs*

I guess I go. First of all I am choosey. But I like food! I have a problem with food because it's always the toughest question of all.

"What to eat?"

Besides not knowing what to eat, have to decide what you want to eat to not put on weight is another thing! There's also eating too much, which will end up over-stuffing my fragile stomach. Oh food, why must you be so nice smelling and so taste so good? Either I really can eat, or I can't eat at all. Gah.

I've got a problem with FOOD.

Valid? :D

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"We cannot solve our problems with the same thinking we used when we created them." - Albert Einstein

30 Day Challenge - Day 26.

2011-12-29T23:57:00.002+08:00

Day 26 - What kind of person attracts you.

Ah. What kind of person attracts me huh?

Someone who I can click with.
Common topics to chat about.
Sincere.
Honest.
A person who's trustworthy.
Pleasant looking.
Good hearted.
A good listener.

I value friendship very much.
Much more than you will ever know.

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“Attraction is not a choice.” - David DeAngelo

30 Day Challenge - Day 25.

2011-12-29T21:57:00.002+08:00

Day 25 - Someone who fascinates you and why.

I wonder who fascinates me. Hmmmm~ I have got no idea. This is supposed to be a Christmas post! But it's way overdue. Merry Christmas everyone! I hope you guys had a very merry Christmas, because I know I did! Different from the year before, I had Christmas songs stuck in my head 2-3 days before Christmas, and then I had the most lovely Christmas Eve with awesome friends. Even had a BBQ party on Christmas night with so many laughter and joy.

It was a Christmas to remember.

And you know who fascinates me? Myself. Because I always do things that I think I can't do but end up doing. I always do stuff I find impossible. ;P

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“Never get so fascinated by the extraordinary that you forget the ordinary” - Magdalen Nabb

30 Day Challenge - Day 24.

2011-12-29T10:56:00.002+08:00

Day 24 - Your favourite movie and what's it about.

There's too many to choose from! I'll just put the movie that comes into mind first, which will be.. ~~Transformers?~~ No. No. No. It'll be..

WAIT FOR IT!

Pirates of the Caribbean!

Yes!

My all-time favourite movie! :D Basically I'm so infatuated with Captain Jack Sparrow. And I just love pirates. :D Arrrr! ;)

Drink up me hearties! ;D

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“Life's pretty good, and why wouldn't it be? I'm a pirate, after all." - Johnny Depp

30 Day Challenge - Day 23.

2011-12-27T21:55:00.002+08:00

Day 23 - Give pictures of 5 guys who are famous who you find attractive.

Adam Levine. ♥

Peter Ho/何润东 ♥

Robert Downey Jr. :D

Joseph Gordon-Levitt.

Can't miss him out. :D ♥

Wang LeeHom/王力宏 ♥

To view more pictures, click here. :)

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“People don't fall in love with what's right in front of them.
People want the dream-what they can't have.
The more unattainable, the more attractive.”

30 Day Challenge - Day 22.

2011-12-27T09:55:00.001+08:00

Day 22 - How have you changed in the past 2 years?

If I say nothing much has changed, would you believe me? Then again, would I believe myself?

I might be the same girl you know from 2 years ago. I might not be as well. I am still in the process of finding myself. Sometimes I think I have found out who I really am, yet at times, I am confused to who I am exactly. I can be someone you like very much at one moment. And I can be someone you totally dislike the next minute.

All I can say is, yes, I have changed. Maybe it's for the better, maybe it's for the worst. Maybe the changes are not noticeable, maybe it's very obvious. I am not the same person I was 2 years ago. I may be more open-minded, or maybe the other way round. Some things may still be the same, but I know deep down, I have changed. :)

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“The key to change... is to let go of fear.” - Rosanne Cash

30 Day Challenge - Day 21.

2011-12-26T23:54:00.002+08:00

Day 21 - One of your favourite shows.

Ok. First of all, I watched a few shows and most are my favourite shows. But now I am asked to choose one. Damn. How to choose when the shows you watched are the ones you like? Oh well, if I have to do it then I will.

First I was thinking of Bones, which I have always liked.

Airs every Thursday. :)

Then CSI Miami came into mind.
Because this is like the only show, out of the CSI shows that I liked.

Airs every Sunday.

But I just couldn't make up my mind! Then in came How I Met Your Mother!

Airs every Monday.

This was a show I had recently just started watching.
Out of all the shows, this one has the most comedy in it. :D

Then, I can't have this out of the list of my favourite shows!

Airs every Tuesday.
How can I miss Glee out? Glee brings people together! :D

There are others but it's only these that came into mind. I guess my all time favourite show would be Bones. Like seriously. I love watching Bones! Though I think tied together in that spot with Bones would be Glee. Gah. Whatever. Here's to my favourite tv shows. :) Cheers.

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“I don't think she's a lesbian. I think she just ran out of men. [Charlotte]” - Sex and the City

30 Day Challenge - Day 20.

2011-12-26T23:09:00.001+08:00

Day 20 - How important you think education is.

First of all, I might not have any idea what am I blogging right here right now, but it's all based on my own personal views. If you want to judge, then just click the 'x' on your top right hand corner. Thanks. :)

There's a balance between good education and the upbringing at home. Good quality education is needed nowadays to survive in this massive corporate world but without a good upbringing at home, even if you have the best education in the world, you will still have to learn the hard way of succeeding. Yes, education is important, but you need to have a good upbringing at home to be able to match with the education you receive.

I think that education is very important. They say, knowledge is power. We are always learning, until the day we die. But to have a good education, it starts from the house. Whatever your parents taught you are part of your learning education too! Never underestimate the power of education! But, sad to say, to find quality education nowadays, you have to look hard, and make sure you put in effort of your own to succeed.

No doubt, education is important, but without the right upbringing within a household, education or not, you are still a zero.

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A human being is not attaining his full heights until he is educated. - Horace Mann

30 Day Challenge - Day 19.

2011-12-22T17:33:00.001+08:00

Day 19 - Disrespecting your parents.

How the hell am I going to do that? I am finding the coming topics hard to talk about! First of all, my brain ain't designed for those kind of questions! Second, I'm just down right lazy.

I respect my parents and have got no way to disrespect them. ^^ So here I declare skipping this topic!

Wait. I ain't skipping.

This post is just late.

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“Men are respectable only as they respect” - Ralph Waldo Emerson

30 Day Challenge - Day 18.

2011-12-18T14:05:00.002+08:00

Day 18 - Your Beliefs.

They did not state what are my beliefs to be about, so it's an open topic! I have a few beliefs to actually get me through my journey of life.

- I believe life is beautiful in every way. How we choose to see it defines who we are.

- Life is a roller Coaster. There's ups and downs. Each moment makes life much more of an interesting place to live in. ;)

- I also believe that there's a story behind every person, a reason why they are the way they are.

- Seeing is deceiving, dreaming is believing. ;)

- Believe in yourself before believing others. (The same as love yourself before others)

- Life is a journey that only you yourself can experience it.

- I believe that negative thoughts are a choice. You can choose to snap out of it, or continue torturing yourself. (Think Barney from "How I Met Your Mother")

- I believe in asking the universe. Ask and you shall receive. ;)

- My beliefs are just part of the stuff that gets me through the day.

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A man must not swallow more beliefs than he can digest. - Henry Ellis

30 Day Challenge - Day 17.

2011-12-17T13:41:00.004+08:00

Day 17 - Your highs and lows of the past year.

I don't think I can even remember what happened yesterday or a few days ago, and you expect me to remember my highs and lows of the past year? Oh well, might as well give my lousy memory a boost.

Last year, year 2010. Was the year I went from being a Year 2 Semester 1 student to a Year 1 Semester 1 student. I jumped the boat from being a QS student to an AR student. And life as a student seems much more tougher than it was. I missed my QS mates so dearly that I practically dug out all the old photos just to see them. I remember making a compilation of certain events on them. Sometimes, love like that, I really got no idea how to express it more.

As I proceeded down this tough long road, I learned that my passion for art has always been part of my life. First semester was smooth. Second semester was joined by more people that came from Diploma next door. Suddenly the whole class became much bigger. And complications starts to arise. At the end of last year, I always, keep wanting to go back to my QS mates. I miss them so much that I became depressed. That was the downside.

Gosh. I can't really remember what happened last year. But I remember last Christmas was a nice quiet one with boyf. Before he went off to Australia to further his studies. I remember having someone to go out with every weekend, and every event I go to I have to bring him along. Because the feeling of not having him there with me to spend that moment makes me miss him. Oh well, that was the past year. And I can't really remember much already.

Let's just wait for what I have to say about this year. ;)

30 Day Challenge

Everyone has highs and lows that they have to learn from, but how you handle is what makes your life.

30 Day Challenge - Day 16.

2011-12-16T15:19:00.003+08:00

Day 16 - Your views on mainstream music.

I didn't know what mainstream music meant until I Googled it. Every night I blog at least a post or two, just so that I can schedule it to appear when it's due. Because I just do not have the time to blog on the day itself! Goodness. Am I really that busy? So all the post you see are scheduled like a week before! :P Well, let's get back to topic.

Mainstream music, which includes songs that you have heard on the radio, or anywhere that one hear, you can tell what song is that, although you are not into the artist. Lady Gaga, Justin Bieber, Britney Spears, Chris Brown, Katy Perry, and many more. Well, I know their songs that are frequently played on national radio. But I also listen to their other songs which I some, I find it better than those played on radio!

Some people think that mainstream music is shit, lousy. The worst music ever made. They rather listen subculture music. Or that's what it's called. Need to ask Google. Actually, mainstream music is good but too much of it is a big waste of time. The sounds and tones are all the same. As long as it's nice music, from Chinese music to English, Malay to Korean, Japanese to... Oh well, you get what I mean. Anything I can shake my body to would do. ^^

Party Rock! ;)

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“Without music, life would be an error.” - Friedrich Nietzsche

Get Your Ass Back Home by Gym Class Heroes feat. Neon Hitch.

2011-12-15T23:19:00.000+08:00

Oh, it's so sexy y'all

I don't know where you're going
Or when you're coming home
I left the keys under the mat to our front door
For one more chance to hold you close
I don't know where you're going
Just get your ass back home

We both knew this type of life
Didn't come with instructions
So I'm trying to do my best
To make something outta nothing
And sometimes it gets
Downright shitty in fact
When you call and I don't even know
What city I'm at

Or what day of the week in the middle of the month
In a year I don't recall
It's like my life's on repeat and the last time we spoke
I told you I wouldn't be long
That was last November now December's almost gone
I'd apologize but I don't realize what I'm doing wrong

I don't know where you're going
Or when you're coming home
I left the keys under the mat to our front door
For one more chance to hold you close
I don't know where you're going
Just get your ass back home

And you been nothing but amazing
And I never take that for granted
Half of these birds would have flew
To coop with you, you truly understand it
And the fact you stood beside me
Every time you heard some bogusness
You deserve a standing o
'Cause they'd a just been over it

Let em talk, let em talk, let em talk, let em talk
Like we don't hear what they saying
Let em walk, let em walk, let em walk, let em walk
We'll just drive by and keep waving
Cause you and I above all that
Just let em wallow in it
Now they all choked up, yuck
Cause they be swallowing it

I don't know where you're going
Or when you're coming home
I left the keys under the mat to our front door
For one more chance to hold you close
I don't know where you're going
Just get your ass back home

No one holds me down like you do, sweetheart
You keep doing that, I'll keep doing this
We'll be all right in the end
Trust that
We put the us in trust, baby
Let's go!

I don't care what you're after
As long as I'm the one, no
I don't care why you're leaving
You'll miss me when you're gone

I don't know where you're going http://www.blogger.com/img/blank.gif
Or when you're coming home
I left the keys under the mat to our front door
For one more chance to hold you close
I don't know where you're going
Just get your ass back home

I'm home baby

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You'll miss me when I'm gone.

30 Day Challenge - Day 15.

2011-12-15T14:54:00.004+08:00

Day 15 - Your favourite Tumblrs.

Alright. This will be very short. My top 3 Tumblrs that I like. :)
(Well this was supposed to be a Tumblr post but I shifted it to Blogger instead.)

3. Great Spaces

This site provides a wide range of photos
about a building followed by the design concept and the spaces within. :)

2. Metalheart

I found this site really nice.

1. Leilockheart

Heard of her? :)
Nice nice quotes to go with awesome backgrounds. Lovely. ^^

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A place where words speaks.

Don't bend, don't break. Don't back down.

2011-12-15T00:40:00.000+08:00

I've got nothing else to lose anymore.

It's my life.

It's now or never.

I ain't going to live forever.

I just want to live my life alive. ;)

30 Day Challenge - Day 14.

2011-12-14T14:00:00.004+08:00

Day 14 - Your earliest memory.

Of what? Well, let me think.
*thinks hard*
*Scratch heads*

I don't know why but all I can go back to is when I was 12 years old. Oh wait. My memory is working! I remember when I was Standard 1! 7 years old! Oh gosh. I remember being quite naughty. I remember teacher was quite mad at some students for not doing their homework. (I think) And I was chatting away with a bunch of friends at a corner. Who knew what I was talking about and all of a sudden I stood up. (My memory is fading) Apparently all I remember is standing up from my seat, having my teacher to call me out and caned my hand. >< Go figure. I wonder what else I can remember from my childhood. Was actually searching my brain for my earliest memory that I can remember of but nothing. Only that. Oh well. Better than nothing. :)

30 Day Challenge

“If you carry your childhood with you, you never become older.” - Tom Stoppard

Architecture 101 : 6

2011-12-14T03:19:00.000+08:00

6. We move through negative spaces and dwell in positive spaces.

The shapes and qualities of architectural spaces greatly influence human experience and behavior, for we in habit the spaces of our built environment and not the solid walls, roofs, and columns that shape it. Positive spaces are almost always preferred by people for lingering and social interaction. Negative spaces tend to promote movement rather than dwelling in place.

From 101 Things I learned in Architecture School by Matthew Frederick.

Simple rules.

2011-12-14T01:27:00.003+08:00

I can really say, that I am happy. ;)

Happiness comes from within.

30 Day Challenge - Day 13.

2011-12-13T14:37:00.001+08:00

Day 13 - Somewhere you like to move or visit.

Ireland. :D

On my places to visit list. :)

Historical!

Soon. Hopefully. :)

OMG. :D

New York.
One day. I might.

My dream. ♥

With my dream house! ^^

These pictures says it all.

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Dream dreams, but pay the price.

30 Day Challenge - Day 12.

2011-12-13T03:39:00.000+08:00

Day 12 - Bullet your whole day.

What the heck does this mean?
I had to Google.
And oh boy. Bullet. Dots.
Okays. Let's get started with my day.

Awaken by a phone call at 8AM.

Got out of bed by 820AM.

Showered and got my lazy ass to work.

Arrived at office by 950AM.

Sat down, took laptop out, turned it on.

Work until 1PM.

1-2PM, lunch.

Back to work.

Face computer until 630PM.

Pack up.

Go pick YCP up.

Go redeem Lot18 fruit juice at Rivercity, Jalan Ipoh.

Do Kepong for dinner.

Went round KL searching for Intercontinental Hotel.

Get my baby and drove back home.

Facebook.

Shower.

Oovoo with heng dais. :D

That sums it up I guess. Time to sleep.

30 Day Challenge

Did anyone told you not to have feelings for me?

30 Day Challenge - Day 11.

2011-12-11T12:41:00.000+08:00

Day 11 - Put your iPod on shuffle and write 10 songs that pop up.

Though I do not have an iPod, I shall put my iTunes on shuffle mode!

Now this, is INTERESTING! :D Me likes! :D
Let's start!

1. Westlife - I Have A Dream.
I have a dream, a fantasy. ;)

2. Mariah Carey - Always Be My Baby
An old song.

3. Mika - Blue Eyes
o.o

4. 言承旭 - 你是我唯一的執著 (You Are My Only Persistence)
Nice song. Lyrics are nice too. ^^

5. 梁文音 - 愛一直存在
愛，会一直存在。 :)

6. Elvis Presley - You'll Never Walk Alone
Liverpool. HAHAH.

7. Miley Cyrus - One In A Million
They say good things take time, but really great things happen in a blink of an eye. ^^

8. Janice 卫兰 - 越幫越忙
Too many cook spoil the broth.

9. Beauty & the Beast - Transformation
This is the Disney's Beauty & the Beast's soundtrack. Heh.

10. Christina Perri - Jar Of Hearts
Don't come back to me. Who do you think you are.

There. Done. :)

30 Day Challenge

“Music is what feelings sound like.”

30 Day Challenge - Day 10.

2011-12-10T23:26:00.000+08:00

Day 10 - Discuss your first love and first kiss.

Wow. An interesting topic!
How am I supposed to discuss this? ><
*shy*

My first love. There are sayings about how you can never forget your first love. But as time passes, I find myself forgetting how I felt with my first love. That kind of feeling, it just fades away. And they say you can never forget how you felt when you are with your first love. I guess time healed that broken heart of mine. I remember listening to a song, countless times. 李圣杰 - 重来 was played a thousand times, or maybe a million times. Listen to the song lyrics closely, and you will know why. All I wanted at that time, was for you to turn back and look at me, look at how much I needed you.

My first love wasn't a perfect one. I couldn't believe that it was love as well. I remember writing numerous words on a piece of paper, because I was heart-broken that all we could was just to be friends at that time. I didn't know what to do but to wish that we could start all over again. Every love song I heard reminds me of you. But yet, there's only that particular song which, whenever I hear it, it'll remind me of you. That one message hurt me so bad. I remember I was the one who took the first move. I took the risk, told you out loud, and then withdrew. Somehow we lasted for a month. I remember how it felt when I rested my heads on your shoulders. The thought of that made me smile. :)

How silly and naive were we at that time. Years have passes now. A total of 5 years, going on 6. Now I can talk and laugh about it. I ain't shy to say that if it wasn't because of you, I would not have know how first love was supposed to be like. First love, naive, innocent, young, brave, silly, afraid. First love can last as well, but few survive the rough road. I am looking forward to see you again. In another 2-3 years time I hope. Touch down back here safe. ;)

请你看看我真的需要你的我

My first kiss? It was so sudden. Unexpected. Something sometimes I would want to forget because I always have in mind, first kiss are supposed to be special. Oh well. I guess mine isn't, and I bet I am not the only one. :) There's goes my first kiss. Very unexpected, very sudden, and I didn't like it at all. Sorry to say but I don't like people forcing their wet mouths on my mouth. Yucks. I guess I wasn't prepared at that time. But it also depends who I am with and whether do I have feelings for that person. But thank you for that short period. I know not to sit on escalators anymore. Hee! ^^

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I like this bottom quote so much.

“I worked so hard for that first kiss
And a heart don’t forget something like that

Like an old photograph
Time can make a feeling fade
But the memory of a first love
Never fades away.”
- Tim McGraw

30 Day Challenge - Day 09.

2011-12-09T21:37:00.000+08:00

Day 09 - How you hope your future will be like.

Well, it's more like where I see myself in 10 years time. My future would be what I dream of having, what I dream of being. I hope that my future will be a smooth journey there. Well, but I don't care much about the destination. I care more about the journey, which is the highlight of my life. :) My future consist of a house I design my own, driving my dream car, having a steady income, and ultimately, traveling! I want to see the world in my very own eyes, step on land that I have not set foot yet, and live to tell my grandchildren ALL my life experiences. ^^

30 Day Challenge

“Stop acting as if life is a rehearsal.
Live this day as if it were your last. The past is over and gone.
The future is not guaranteed.” - Wayne Dyer

30 Day Challenge - Day 08.

2011-12-08T17:53:00.001+08:00

Day 08 - A moment you felt the most satisfied with your life.

At least, I know I never had nothing. :)

I think it would be right now. Right this moment. Where even though I do not have the latest gadget, or live in a big house, I might not have the best of everything that I wanted, but at least, I am happy. For that, I feel most satisfied with where I am right now in my life. I'm happy, I'm free, I might not have everything, but at least I know I am loved.

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We always want what we can't get.

30 Day Challenge - Day 07.

2011-12-07T15:28:00.002+08:00

Day 07 - Your zodiac sign and if you think it fits your personality.

My zodiac.

But does it fit my personality? I guess it pretty much does. There are so many websites that you can Google about zodiacs and I have selected a few for viewing. To simplify everything, here's some keywords about an Aries.

Aries Strength Keywords:
- Independent
- Generous
- Optimistic
- Enthusiastic
- Courageous

Aries Weakness Keywords:
- Moody
- Short tempered
- Self-involved
- Impulsive
- Impatient

I have got no comment whether I am independent, or do I have leadership qualities. I can be stingy at times so that does not make me a generous person. I can be quite a pessimist but people say I am optimistic. Well, it's how I chose to view things. Optimism is good. :) I'm enthusiastic and courageous! Not 100%, but yes I am. I'm quite impatient when I am rushing for time. But I can be really patient too! :D Well I guess almost all applies to me. Being an Aries fits my personality. ^^

For more, click here, here & here.

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A proud Aries. :)

30 Day Challenge - Day 06.

2011-12-06T14:48:00.002+08:00

Day 06 - Write 30 interesting facts about yourself.

Taken by a good friend.

Right.
Random facts coming right up!

30. I'm a girl. Is this interesting?
29. I love sweet stuff.
28. No music no life!
27. Crazy bitch.
26. Super love photography. ♥
25. I love Glee! ♥
24. Pretty sensitive over certain stuff.
23. Owns a Nokia E65 since college.
22. Birthday number! :D ♥
21. Adventurous & outgoing!
20. Prefers complete honesty from friends and family.
19. A social butterfly. Or rather, a socialite.
18. Loves shopping! :D
17. Sincere.
16. Talkative. :P
15. Blur and clumsy at certain times. Or maybe all the time?
14. Love to laugh! ♥
13. Totally straight. I love guys. :P
12. WEIRD.
11. A procrastinator.
10. Stubborn at times.
9. Loves ALL my friends.
8. Accepts people for who they are.
7. Dislike people who smokes.
6. Open-minded.
5. Secretly wish to be a model.
4. Currently single and loving it. :D
3. A great listener. :)
2. Loves animals! ♥
1. An architect in making. :P ♥

Here's something else I found on the web. True or not, its up to you. :)

MARCH BABY
Drop dead gorgeous!!! Attractive personality. Very sexy! Affectionate & Secretive. Naturally honest, generous and sympathetic. Chatterbox! Loves to talk alot! Loves to get their way! Unbelievable kisser! Easily angered. Very stubborn in the most way possible! Loves to get noticed! Willing to take risks for others. Makes good choices. Has a great fashion sense! Maybe a little too popular with others. Outgoing and crazy at times! Intelligent. Can sometimes be a heartbreaker! Can love as much as possible! Hates insults. Loves compliments! Just one of the clumsiest people you will ever meet. A very big flirt! Trustworthy. Appreciative and returns kindness. The best in bed out of all these months!! Hardly shows emotions. Tends to bottle up feelings. Observant and assesses others.

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"Maybe some women aren't meant to be tamed.
Maybe they just need to run free till they find someone just as wild to run with them."
- Sex in the City

Victoria Secret.

2011-12-05T23:37:00.000+08:00

First time after finish watching it, I went OMG so many times, my jaws were literally wide open throughout the show. *drools* Those angels were freaking awesome, freaking sexy, gorgeous and freaking rocking the show! From head to toe, the outfits, music, everything was just awesome! ♥

Oh, and you just have to REPLAY that kiss scene!! ♥ It's so freaking sweet! OHMIGOSH! :D

Now, I'm falling in love with Victoria Secret fashion shows. And those model bodies. Oh gosh. ♥

Smile, it's the best makeup a girl can wear. ;)

30 Day Challenge - Day 05.

2011-12-05T22:25:00.001+08:00

Day 05 - A time you thought about ending your life.

I don't know about you people out there, but I believe some people out there have met this kind of situation, where all hope has died, and the only thing left is to just end your life. Have I thought about ending my life? Yes. Thoughts like these occurred in my darkest days. Those days have passed. I wouldn't want to tell you how scary that thought could be, or how broken down I was. But what does not kill you only makes you stronger. :)

The time I thought about ending my life was one of the darkest moment of my life. Nobody to turn to although there were friends around me. Screamed my lungs out because it was too much to bear. Punched walls, cried my heart out, I was young. I didn't know what else I can do to make everything alright again. Felt like a burden to everyone.

The pain inside was excruciating.

Somehow, I don't know how, but I managed to walk out of the dark and into the light. :) What is in the past, stays there. Who was I in the past makes me who I am right now. I am grateful for I am still right here blogging about this! =P

30 Day Challenge

Don't judge me by my past, I don't live there anymore.

30 Day Challenge - Day 04.

2011-12-05T18:00:00.001+08:00

Day 04 - Your views on religion.

This is such a sensitive topic to be talking about. I don't think I would really talk about it. The first line already state what is my view on religion. I think it's something everyone should respect. Whether you are Hindu, Christian, Islam, Buddhist, or a free thinker. We are all still the same. We are all humans. What define us is not by the religion we have, or our skin colours. It's how we carry ourselves and how we treat others that define what kind of person we are.

We can be of different race and religion, or even from the different country. Religion is something that you believe in. Something that is spiritual. It's all base on what you believe in. I believe everyone has their own beliefs. It's a free world after all. :) Just remember not to discriminate. Remember what our religion teaches us. We are all still humans after all.

30 Day Challenge

“Religion is an insult to human dignity.
With or without it, you'd have good people doing good things and evil people doing bad things, but for good people to do bad things, it takes religion.” - Steven Weinberg.

30 Day Challenge - Day 03.

2011-12-05T15:10:00.001+08:00

Too behind schedule. Supposed to be asleep but I just have to get this out.

Day 03 - Your views on drugs and alcohol.

What a topic to be blogging about. I really can't see what I can say about this. Drugs is something everyone should not be touching. Wait, it's something that should not be invented in the first place. Except for those pills that doctors and pharmacist are allowed to prescribe to us. Drugs, they are not something we should meddle with. They make us disoriented, addicted, make our health deteriorate, as well as turn us into a totally different person.

Just stay away from drugs like Marijuana, Heroin, Cocaine and others.

“Drugs are a waste of time. They destroy your memory and your self-respect
and everything that goes along with with your self esteem." - Kurt Cobain

As for alcohol, too much will spoil your liver. As much as I like to drink and try new liquor, I know I will not turn into an alcoholic. It's not cool to keep drinking until you are drunk and puking all over. It's not cool to be drinking every weekend just because you can. Fun as it seem, too much intake liquor will harm your body. My mother was so afraid of me being an alcoholic. Just because I bought two bottles of liquor does not make me addicted to drinking. Just because I talk about wanting to go and drink does not make me a drinker. Just because I like alcohol does not make me an alcoholic. But thanks for the concern from my mother. I still dislike beer because of the gas and it does not taste that good. I prefer liquor drinks such as tequila. Heh~

Red wine, Tequila, Margaritas, Bloody Mary, anything that rhymes with all those. Well, Hoergarden is not to shabby either. Just don't turn into an alcoholic. :) Now, I feel like I am promoting drinking. Damn.

30 Day Challenge

"Stay busy, get plenty of exercise, and don’t drink too much.
Then again, don’t drink too little."

30 Day Challenge - Day 02.

2011-12-04T08:13:00.001+08:00

Yes. I am behind schedule. Was busy this few days. I don't even have time to turn on the computer to even blog properly. So here's my Day 2 challenge. I will try to catch up with the days. ><

Day 02 - Where you'd like to be in 10 years?

Do you ever wonder?

No I don't.

One thing is because I live to past each day. I live for the moment. But where would I like to be in 10 years time? There are so many places that I would like to be in 10 years time!

In 10 years time, I will be

1. A well-to-do architect. :D
2. Having a place of my own.
3. Driving my dream car.
4. Buying a piece of land and build my dream home.
5. Having a steady boyfriend who loves me for who I am. :)
6. Owning a cute little silky terrier. ^^
7. Getting my dream DSLR in my hands. ;)
8. Upgrading my photo-shooting skills.
9. Happy.
10. Touring Europe. The ultimate dream. ^^

That's where I'll be in 10 years time. ^^ Short, but that's all I can think about, for now. Who knows where I'll be in 10 years time? Only time can tell. What I shall do now is to enjoy the present, the moment right now. ;)

30 Day Challenge

Dream. Europe.

30 Day Challenge - Day 01.

2011-12-01T15:20:00.000+08:00

Day 01 - Your current relationship. If single discuss how single life is.

In the first place, I got no idea why did I ever accepted this. Should be interesting I say. Intriguing, as said by a friend. So how do I start? I have got no idea. Here goes nothing.

My current relationship?

I would like to say that I'm taken.

But fortunately for me, I am not. Or should I say, fortunate for some people out there, that I am single? Yes. Single. You must think that I am weird for not being attached to someone at this very moment, the moment where every one just want to be in a relationship. The moment you turn single, you see people around you getting into relationships, and that bothers you very much. But, oh well.

And since this is day 1's topic, I guess it's time to let the cat out of the bag. Some people know, but they don't really know. Some already know, and they just wonder what went wrong. Want the details? Find me personally. All I can say is I am enjoying single life right now. :) I finally realized that I wasn't happy being in a long distance relationship, and that I am just too tired. Tired of being in a relationship, unhappy, and felt tied down. What I realized is that I need my freedom. The freedom that I secretly wanted. And I am happy that I am free now. ;)

Single for 4 months and counting. I can't remember the last time I was single and doing things on my own! But who cares. The most important thing now is that I am happy. As long as I am happy, it's all that matters to me now. Single life has been awesome! It feels like I have been single for a very long time though! Funny how things work. When I'm taken, nobody comes to find me to hang out. When I'm taken, I am restricted and can't seem to go out with people without telling. When I'm single, suddenly my schedule is full, and I don't have to ask or tell anyone who or when or where I am gong out to.

There's the good and bad side of being in a relationship and being single. But I'm happy being single right now. :) I feel so relief. :) Single means that I don't have to be obliged to "report" my whereabouts, who I am with and so forth. Single means I get to make my own decisions whether it's good or bad. Single means getting to be just me and not being judged by others. Single means more freedom to do anything at anytime without restriction. Single means that I have time to pay MORE attention to myself. ;)

It's too bad that I am a social butterfly as quoted by a friend, so I'm pretty much too hot and hard for anyone to handle. Unless you meet my standards. ;P But currently I'm not available as my heart is not with me. I'm taking about a one year break to understand myself better, to take good care of myself, to know what I want in life, and of course, live my life to the fullest each day. Find my heart, and you will find me. Get my heart, and you will get me.

Life's beautiful in every single way.

It's a hell of a journey that I am loving!

30 Day challenge

"I don't need a man to rectify my existence.
The most profound relationship we'll ever have is the one with ourselves."
- Shirley MacLaine

30 Day challenge.

2011-11-30T11:56:00.000+08:00

CHALLENGE ACCEPTED! :D

Alright. It's time to take up this challenge. :) This has been in my blog draft for a very long time. Looking back, I should just take up this challenge. Why I did not start as soon as I found this?

I guess I wasn't daring enough to blog about some topics. Or maybe I just ain't that free to keep up with this challenge. But I guess it's time. Since year 2011 is coming to an end, it's a good thing to reflect back on everything that has happened and welcome a new year once again. :)

Challenge starts tomorrow! Here goes nothing! Cheers!

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I build up walls. To protect my heart from the cruel world.

Fall in love with me.

2011-11-29T23:59:00.001+08:00

"Fall in love with someone who deserves your heart , not someone who plays with it."

You played it well.
Forgotten everything we almost had.
Like nothing ever happened.
Good game.

You don't deserve me anyways.
I'm out of your league. ;)

"When u make a promise to someone, there's something almost sacred about it.
Keep your word and people will respect u for it."

There's nothing better then revenge. ;)

Nike 10K run.

2011-11-27T15:22:00.001+08:00

It's your city. Run it.

NIKE WE RUN KL 10K : CONQUERED!

I'm so proud of myself! First I jogged with a very constant pace all the way to 5KM. And I managed to complete the whole 10KM within the time limit! :D My first time taking part in a race like that. I'm proud of myself and my buddy Chia Ning for doing so well this morning! :D Thumbs up for us both first timers! :D

It was so crowded in the morning! A sea of orange-red shirt people everywhere! I see that colour even when I close my eyes! =S The crowd was huge. The amount of people turned up for the run was amazing. Sadly, the road wasn't big enough for so many people to run. Over-crowded I would say.

The sea of orange-red crowd.

Throughout the whole 10KM, there wasn't a stretch that was clear. It was filled with orange-red people at every inch of the road. Uphill, downhill, across the road. It was not so tiring after all. But my feet were hurting. Legs are fine though. But once I started walking at 5KM, my legs were automatically telling me to just keep running. It sort of programmed itself to just keep pacing.

The sea of orange-reds.
Blur though.

It took me about 1 hour and 40 minutes to reach the finish line. My father said it was slow. :( Well I guess it is. I will improve my timing the next round. :) Never try, never know. Glad that I registered. Glad that I went for trainings. Glad that I came, and glad that I conquered! =P

My QS.

My ME.

An awesome day.
With awesome people.
Now I know. ;)

KL. It's my city.

I ran it. :)

Never try, never know.

Run! Run! Run!

2011-11-22T01:44:00.000+08:00

Oh by the way, I have completed my challenge! One week is finally over and I finally can satisfy my itchy hands on whacking people! So not used to not whacking or scolding people. =P

Well, another challenge down. Next up, to complete the Nike We Run KL 10K. My first time running for such an event, so not prepared. Time to sleep now. :) Training tomorrow! Need to gear up! Run! :)

Just do it!

Don't forget. ;)

那些年，我們一起追的女孩。

2011-11-22T01:36:00.000+08:00

电影是好看，听别人说，很感动，看完会流泪。但我仅然一至笑，无心啊！我是个没了心的女孩。心已给丢了，扔到一个自己也找不到的地方。真的累了，把心丢了，都是因为不想在被伤害。不用太关心，不用被感动，也不用感觉到心的疼。我不追求完美，只追求快乐。勇气，终于到了终点。但，我已经没那个勇气去喜欢一个人了。

这部戏，对我念中学时刻没什么映像，但对大学的一段时期有映像。看了这部戏，有些画面，使我想起你。那短暂时刻，是多么开心。

上个学期大考，我会那么努力读书，都是因为你。
平时不吃饭的我，因为你，现在会定时吃饭，不敢饿肚子了。
原本不会照顾自己的我，现在会好好的看顾身体了。
是因为你，我也学会了把心给丢了，不去寻找。
现在，也学会了如何一个人生活。

有时，喜欢一个人，并不一定要拥有。祝福他／她，只要他／她快乐，就是很开心的事了。想告诉你，告诉我你没有忘记。没有忘记当是你给我的温柔和体贴，没有忘记你曾给我的快乐。

喜欢就喜欢了，没得回头。
被你喜欢过，就会觉得其他人没有那么喜欢我。
“谢谢你喜欢我。”

Rating : 8/10

也许在另一个平行时空,我们是在一起的。

人生中发生的每一件事都有它的意义。

Architecture 101 : 5.

2011-11-21T00:54:00.000+08:00

5. Solid-void theory is the three-dimensional counterpart to figure-ground theory. It holds that the volumetric spaces shaped or implied by the placement of solid objects are as important as, or more important than, the objects themselves.

A three-dimensional space is considered a positive space if it has a defined shape and a sense of boundary or threshold between in and out. Positive spaces can be defined in an infinite number of ways by points, lines, planes, solid volumes, tress, building edges, columns, walls, sloped earth, and innumerable other elements.

From 101 Things I learned in Architecture School by Matthew Frederick.

人海中遇見你。

2011-11-18T07:21:00.000+08:00

"有没有试过在人海中，一眼望过去，看得见的，只有他／她?"

仿佛其他人不存在。

那种感觉，多么幸运，也是种幸福。

把我曾给你的爱，珍藏在心里面，不让它随风而飘散。

The Hardest Thing by Tylar Ward.

2011-11-15T01:32:00.000+08:00

A still frames photograph of you, and me together.
Is all I have of you and me anymore.
We were so in love and we thought it'll last forever.
But in the storm, we were torn.

And I won't forget you, don't regret you. And the hardest thing I've had to do is live without you.
And i wonder why we both walked away.
I'm lost without you, still crazy for you.
Just turn around, come back because your smile is overdue
And I miss, I miss you.

If I'd only knew the words to say that would make you turn around (turn around)
I'd say those words to you more than a million times.
It's been forever, but that hasn't changed what you mean to me.
Darling can't you see? (can't you see?)

And I won't forget you, don't regret you. And the hardest thing i've had to do is live without you.
And I wonder why we both walked away.
I'm lost without you, still crazy for you.
Just turn around, come back because your smile is overdue
And I miss, I miss you.

Im sorry for all I did, what I said and things I hid and I'm finally over me..
Is that too late for you?
I can't imagine where I'd be
If you had never rescued me
You gave me what it is, now I need you.
Cause I need you!

And I won't forget you, don't regret you. And the hardest thing i've had to do is live without you.
And i wonder why we both walked away.
I'm lost without you, still crazy for you.
Just turn around, come back because your smile is overdue
And I miss, I miss you.

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The hardest thing.

Is to pretend everything is alright even if it isn't.
Torn by the storm.

A picture of us in my memory pocket.

11.11.11

2011-11-11T01:11:00.000+08:00

Somehow, I just need to blog. On this auspicious date.

11.11.11

For those who were looking forward for this day, its finally here! Whether it's a day of joy, or a day of sadness, some just want to remember this day. Some look forward to celebrating this very day with someone special, and for some, it's just another day. However you want to look at it, it's going to be another day fill with either surprises, or a routine that you never break.

For me, it's just going to be another day filled with work. I have been facing Autocad until my eyes are so freaking tired. I can't wait to complete the drawings I have on my hands and start model making again. :D Everything seemed rushed now. Everything is due either this week or next. I'm also under the pressure to complete the work I have on my hands, yet at the same time, so freaking lazy to do. Bad.

11.11.11

What are you gong to do? And when the clock strikes 11:11AM/PM, what are you going to do within that minute before the needle hits 11:12AM/PM? I know that for me, I wouldn't even know that 11:11AM has past and I would put it down in my history books on what I did on 11:11PM. :) Auspicious as it sounds, it's just another day just like any other.

Everybody deserves a second chance. Everybody deserves another try. Life is not just about celebrating auspicious day like this, but about celebrating every single day you lived through.

Just live like you've got one night. ;)

Nobody deserves to be to be treated like shit.

Time vs Creativity.

2011-11-09T23:47:00.000+08:00

That's it people.

"Creativity is not inspired by the pressure of time,
but by the freedom, the playfulness, and the fun."

Though my creativity level is still zero. T__T

Art rules.

Challenge #1 - Soft-spoken me?

2011-11-09T01:48:00.000+08:00

I will remember this date - 8th Nov 2011.
For it is the day I challenged my friends to challenge myself.

Before this year comes to an end, I vouch to do something that I wouldn't have done in years. The picture shows my very first challenge. I say, why think? When you can just do? Life ain't interesting when you don't challenge yourself, and not fun when you don't let your friends know so that they can laugh at you. :D

15 LIKES - 1 day.
30 LIKES - 1 week.
100 LIKES - 1 month.

Cheers to me.
Challenge accepted.
I have to be freaking soft-spoken for a week.
Hurrah.

Remember, I am unique. ;)

Time; it's gone.

2011-11-09T01:27:00.000+08:00

Time;
it does not stop for anyone,
not even the greatest.

One moment so happy, the next it's gone.
One moment something happened, the next everything changed.
One moment, everything will be different within seconds.

Time,
waits for no man.
Not even the mightiest.

Wish you could stop time when you are with that special someone?
Praying that time would stop so that you could do something?
Hope that time would stand still so that everything stays the same?

Every second the hands tick past, those are the seconds you can't get back. Watching the sun set over the horizon, you wish time would let you stay in that moment forever. Why do I always carry around that big bulky DLSR wherever I go? Why is it that I take all sorts of pictures, even ugly ones? There's a reason behind every words, a story behind that smile, and a reason for every action made. Why do I even bother to make a challenge for myself? Why even bother posting it on Facebook? Nobody would bother to wonder or ask.

Watching the clock hands tick, I wonder should I even bother to explain myself? Is it worth wasting time explaining to people when they wouldn't even give a shit about how you feel? Absolutely not. Attention whore. Publicity stunt. Why care what people think? I do this, I'm looking for attention. I don't do that, I am also looking for attention. Stereotypes. There'll be only that handful of people that are willing to stick with you through thick and thin. Time is all you need to find people like that.

Time,
what we need and what we don't.
It's up to us.
Maybe time is what I do not have.
Maybe time is all I've got.
There's no stopping time,
but only to walk with it,
to run with it.
Every moment spent, is a moment worth cherishing,
Bad or good, it's time that we can't have back.
Time, will never stop.

Capture every moment before it leaves your sight.

Walking forward.

The fog has been lifted.

2011-11-08T19:16:00.000+08:00

I finally got to know why I was in such and uptight mood recently, beside having a minor accident. But that's not the point. The fog seemed to have lifted. Sunshine shine through. The thinking came.

我努力假裝現在過得很好
現在的你看來已不需要我

I finally realized all this while it did not cross my mind, to ask how are you, to even want to know anything about you. Even if it's just months, or weeks that I last saw you or heard from you. I used to care, too much, that I ended up hurting myself instead. And because of a song, I start to wonder why. Normally I wouldn't even wonder, but this song 周杰倫 - 你好嗎 got me wondering what is wrong.

現在我試著習慣一個人過
也許你已經開始新的生活

The fact that my heart has died makes so much sense to why I did not even bother to ask or even wonder how are you. I couldn't even care less to what are you up to now, or who's by your side. This song made me realized that sometimes, you might just want to ask, how are you, to know that they are doing fine without you hurts, but that's what that will make you move on better as well. But for me, it just didn't cross my mind to even want to know.

"A broken heart can be healed with time.
There's no such thing as nothing can mend a broken heart.
It just depend on time to make everything feel alright again.
But yes, scars will remain, to remind you of how your heart got broken.
Nothing is perfect in this world, and getting your heart broken is one of the phrases that we have to go through in order to know that time is the best medicine to heal a broken heart."

Those were my own words. And I'm pretty surprised that I put it that well. A broken heart is what changes people, and the only thing that can heal a broken heart is time. In short, pain makes people change. Though I felt no pain, but I will remember the lesson I have learned. Somehow, I have got no freaking idea why this effected me the most. I guessed it's because of those unspoken words we had. About what we almost had.

也許在不同的時空
還牽著你的手

Sometimes, I wanted to scold you, get upset, be angry for all that you have done to me, because I do not deserve it. Maybe it would make me feel better. But worse of all, I do not deserve to be treated like a toy. You know you don't deserve my forgiveness. I deserve much better than what you gave me. I'm worth more than one touch, one kiss can buy. Now, I live with knowing the fact that flashbacks can happen anytime, and that scares me. Because I have already experienced a flashback that shock every single cell within me.

Time flies. I might be able to forgive you, but I won't forget. You are not worth me wasting my time over again. I may think about you from time to time, but that does not mean I still have feelings for you. I may think about you from time to time, but that does not mean I miss you. We were just two similar person that were not meant to be together. Just be happy, that's what all matters. :)

I'm not brave anymore.
I'm broken.

如果两个人分手之后。

2011-11-08T08:30:00.000+08:00

如果两个人分手之后做了朋友，那说明我从来没有爱过你；

如果两个人分手之后依旧可以做朋友做的事那说明我想让你记住我；

如果两个人分手之后我不再见你并大声说我恨你，那说明我不舍得离开你；

如果两个人分手之后我们在彼此的世界消失了，那说明我真的爱你。

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This is not entirely true.
Believe what you want to believe.
I'm just sharing. ;)

Don't be good to me.

2011-11-07T03:39:00.000+08:00

Deep within my body, there lies my soul,
with the fire slowly inching its way round,
I feel the burn.
There's a feeling inside, that even words can't make out.
Such complication, clouds my mind,
words alone can do nothing to ease those demons.
Those feelings of lost, love, confusion, sadness, disappointment, hurt and anger,
all jumble up within, creating a mess.

Sometimes it's just so hard to make everything look so easy.

I don't wonder.

一个男人。

2011-11-03T10:36:00.000+08:00

一个男人如果深爱一个女人，就愿意委屈自己，宽容你犯的错误。

一个男人如果在你面前开始计较他的尊严的时候，
那么他对你的爱也开始打问号，至少他自己开始不那么确信。

最后，他是不是深爱你，你会有感觉的。

当你开始疑问的时候，其实你的心已经明白答案，只是还不想承认。

一个男人爱你的时候总会觉得你笨，处处要他担心，

反之，不爱你的时候，会觉得你聪明伶俐，不劳任何人操心。

一个男人爱一个女人，再忙都会抽空打电话给那个女人。

有时候是发消息有时候是电话。

天冷给你暖手。

和很多人吃饭的时候会偷偷看你，在桌子底下偷偷拉你的手

在两个人吵架后，只要看到你哭，不管到底是谁的错，他再怎么大的火也没有了。

因为不让你伤心，才是真正重要的事，其他的，又算什么。

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Before I die - #2.

2011-11-02T13:32:00.000+08:00

✔ Another checked. ;)

Yet there are still so many things on the list
which I don't think I will be able to achieve.

Got to try though. :)

For a pessimist, I'm pretty optimistic. :)

Bored to death?

2011-11-02T02:43:00.001+08:00

Like the little boy above, that word is written all over my face.

Work has been pretty boring lately. Especially with my boss sitting right behind me! I feel the pressure. =( Was supposed to be blogging about something but heck, I can't remember, and it's time for me to sleep. Activities, full steam ahead! Just make sure I take care of my pockets.

Oh, and take good care of myself. :) Have been eating like nobody's business recently. Hee~ I am so loving my life right now. Except working life. It's lifeless. I so need to exercise. Dedicating my Saturday to swimming and basketball. Looking forward to it! Woohoo~!

Now, time for bed.

Those flashbacks still haunts me.

熟悉的画面。

2011-11-02T01:58:00.000+08:00

这个熟悉的画面让我浮现以前甜蜜的回忆~

晚安~

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忘了我。

2011-11-01T11:47:00.000+08:00

你忙，忘了我需要人陪；
你忙，忘了我会寂寞；
你忙，忘了我在等你电话；
你忙，忘了你对我的承诺。

但你知不知道，爱情不是等你有空的时候，再去珍惜的。

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Flashbacks.

2011-11-01T01:23:00.000+08:00

Unexpectedly revisited.

Re-experiencing.

Flashbacks happens.
And the scariest part is, you don't know when it will happen.

She finally know how it feels. To have flashbacks. To have the past haunting her. All those stories about memories coming back to haunt you, the past taping on your shoulders, she thought it was because you were thinking about what had happened. But how wrong she was. It hits you when you least expect it.

What did you do to me?
Those moments just having you there, right beside me.
I have never heard silence quite this loud.

In the midst of doing work, mind focused on every move she made. Out of nowhere, BAMM! When she came to realization, she found herself stunned, unable to move, sitting there, staring into space. It took her a few minutes to actually realized what was going on. Those, were the worst memories, though nice, he was never hers to start with. Even the music she was listening to could not drown out those flashbacks.

It was like I was being transported back,
To that very day everything was still alright.
Yet there was something in the atmosphere.

Of all the memories, it was as though that particular memory had never left her mind. Why? She started to ask herself. Why must this particular memory flash across her mind, at that time? The realization of something that they almost had, in a blink of an eye, it's gone. Reality hits, back to work. But her mind, unable to focus. Those moments, every detail, just keeps replaying at the back of her mind.

Phone rings.
Irritatedly walked to the room next door.
Walked back to the room just to have you following behind.

Drowning out those memories, she turned to face her work. Her heart beats fast. How could flashbacks happened in the middle of the day? No warning at all, leaving that poor girl vulnerable. Body trembling, she hid it well from those preying eyes at the office. Slowly, but not completely, it starts to fade. Those feelings at that moment, so hard to pin down. Those memories, they slaughter you as they come.

Flashbacks.
They haunt me.

爱是为彼此祝福

孤单。寂寞。

2011-10-31T08:33:00.001+08:00

孤单，是你心里面没有人。

寂寞，是你心里有人却不在身边。

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Before I die - #1.

2011-10-30T22:38:00.001+08:00

✔ Checked. ;)

I should learn to play a full, proper song,
for once.

You played through my mind like a symphony.

这种女人。

2011-10-30T12:44:00.000+08:00

有一种女人貌似花心，其实专一；
貌似坚强，其实很脆弱；
貌似开心，可笑容后的哀伤谁又能懂呢？
这种女人很好懂，表面嘻哈，内心很细腻；
这种女人很敏感，害怕孤单；
这种女人很伤感，喜欢用文字记录心情；
这种女人很矛盾，徘徊放弃与坚持之间。

如果你懂她，喜欢她，请好好珍惜。

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The story of us looks is a tragedy.

2011-10-28T14:24:00.001+08:00

Now I'm standing alone in a crowded room
And we're not speaking
And I'm dying to know, is it killing you
Like it's killing me.

Next chapter.

Why are we pretending this is nothing?
I'd tell you I miss you, but I don't know how
I've never heard silence quite this loud.

The end.

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I used to think one day we'd tell the story of us
How we met and the sparks flew instantly

别让她受伤。

2011-10-28T12:28:00.000+08:00

有一种女孩在陌生人面前会很安静，很冷漠。
在熟人面前却很放肆，很霸道！
这种女孩子不谈恋爱，只在姐妹间游荡。
这种女孩子偶尔看到街上的情侣时，也会幻想，也会羡慕。
这种女孩子不会轻易恋爱，恋爱了一定会好好珍惜。

若你遇到了这样的女孩，请务必好好珍惜她。

这样的女孩请别让她受伤。

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Architecture 101 : 4

2011-10-27T23:55:00.000+08:00

When elements or spaces are not explicit but ate nonetheless apparent
- we can see them even though we can't see them -
they are said to be implied.

As like what my lecturer has said before.
"It's there, but it's not there."

From 101 Things I learned in Architecture School by Matthew Frederick.

In another life.

2011-10-25T02:22:00.000+08:00

Fallen angel.

So out of my mind right now. So out of control. Everything suddenly seem like it's spinning, out of my control, out of my reach. Nothing I can do to grab hold and stop it from spinning. Emotions running wild, clawing at thin air, hallucinations starting. It's all coming back isn't it? Blurred vision, head pounding, body trembling.

"You suck."

It's not going to happen again, is it? Mind going blank, don't know what to think or what to do, a wave of frustration wash over, the need to scream aloud, pulling at my hair, the need to just go ballistic. Scream, kick, claw, punch, bite, shout, everything just waiting to burst out of me, that's what I am, am I?

"Such failure."

Years. It has been years. Memories do haunt you at your weakest moments. Like demons, they eat you up from inside. Burn your soul, you end up losing the real you. Wandering around, searching for answers that can never be found, but Hope keeps you alive, that one day, all will become clear. But has it?

"Who are you?"

Promises, broken.
Hearts, pieces.
Trust, dishevelled.
Souls, ripped.

Sometimes, when you have enough of good times, bad times have to have their say as well. And I guess this is the time where the devil comes standing face-to-face with me, telling me my fun time is up. Depression gnaws on me, gloom shelters me. Must it always be this way?

"Arrogant bitch."

In an blink of an eye, who am I? In the midst of all the mess I have created, I realized, instead of being who I am, I have lost myself in the crowd. That smile I wore, seems so fake. Those greetings, insincere. What happened? Lost myself, lost my heart, lost my soul. Déjà vu.

"Useless."

Refusing to turn back, hesitant to step forward. What happened to that risk-taking, dare-devil that I once knew? Nothing at the back for me to hang on to, yet in the distance, everything seems so far out of reach. So out of control, I feel. I need to stop. I need to take a breather. Life has been passing by so fast that I take whatever that is being thrown at me. But how long can that wall I build last?

"Ignorant."

Stop.

But life does not stop for you. Re-evaluate my principles. Re-evaluate what I want out of life. Re-evaluate who exactly I am and what am I doing. Looking past my shoulders, I see my old self catching up. A walk turn into a jog. A jog turn into a run. Is it a good idea to run from myself? Is it even worth running away from my past?

"Sensitive bitch."

Sensitive, it has been my middle name. Well, hello to you right now, you are back. Rejoice. Where has all my joyful aura went? Where has my light went? Trapped in this darkness, self inflicted wounds are bound to occur. I need to escape. Head pounding, mind blank, body trembling. I hug my knees closer to my body. I need to break free. I can't afford to lose myself once more, after knowing that I am so close to spreading my wings.

Wake up, it's time to face reality.

I do, hell wish it was just a dream.

I need to be able to smile again
without feeling the need to shut my world away from others.

Fallen; an arrow straight through.

最勇敢的事。

2011-10-23T13:51:00.000+08:00

世界上最勇敢的事情，
是微笑着听你爱的人说她与他之间的爱情。

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The sun will set for you.

2011-10-23T02:21:00.000+08:00

“Only once in your life, I truly believe, you find someone who can completely turn your world around. You tell them things that you’ve never shared with another soul and they absorb everything you say and actually want to hear more. You share hopes for the future, dreams that will never come true, goals that were never achieved and the many disappointments life has thrown at you. When something wonderful happens, you can’t wait to tell them about it, knowing they will share in your excitement. They are not embarrassed to cry with you when you are hurting or laugh with you when you make a fool of yourself. Never do they hurt your feelings or make you feel like you are not good enough, but rather they build you up and show you the things about yourself that make you special and even beautiful. There is never any pressure, jealousy or competition but only a quiet calmness when they are around. You can be yourself and not worry about what they will think of you because they love you for who you are. The things that seem insignificant to most people such as a note, song or walk become invaluable treasures kept safe in your heart to cherish forever. Memories of your childhood come back and are so clear and vivid it’s like being young again. Colours seem brighter and more brilliant. Laughter seems part of daily life where before it was infrequent or didn’t exist at all. A phone call or two during the day helps to get you through a long day’s work and always brings a smile to your face. In their presence, there’s no need for continuous conversation, but you find you’re quite content in just having them nearby. Things that never interested you before become fascinating because you know they are important to this person who is so special to you. You think of this person on every occasion and in everything you do. Simple things bring them to mind like a pale blue sky, gentle wind or even a storm cloud on the horizon. You open your heart knowing that there’s a chance it may be broken one day and in opening your heart, you experience a love and joy that you never dreamed possible. You find that being vulnerable is the only way to allow your heart to feel true pleasure that’s so real it scares you. You find strength in knowing you have a true friend and possibly a soul mate who will remain loyal to the end. Life seems completely different, exciting and worthwhile. Your only hope and security is in knowing that they are a part of your life.” — Bob Marley

The only thing I know, is that you were once part of my life.

流星。

2011-10-22T11:11:00.000+08:00

真爱，和流星一样，

一辈子可能只能看见一次，

错过了，就是一辈子。

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Mistletoe by Justin Bieber.

2011-10-22T01:14:00.000+08:00

I got a feeling this is the first time I am posting a Justin Bieber song here at my blog. Not that I don't like him, I am not a fan as well. But some of his songs are pretty good. I don't get why some people just hate him.

Though it's not even near Christmas yet, but this song is out. Makes me look forward to Christmas this year end! It might be the same old Christmas that I always go through every year, but I got a chance to make it nice each year. Christmas, is always, and always will be my favourite time of the year. ^^

It's the most beautiful time of the year
Lights fill the streets spreading so much cheer
I should be playing in the winter snow
But I'mma be under the mistletoe

I don't want to miss out on the holiday
But I can't stop staring at your face
I should be playing in the winter snow
But I'mma be under the mistletoe

With you, shawty with you
With you, shawty with you
With you under the mistletoe

Everyone's gathering around the fire
Chestnuts roasting like a hot July
I should be chillin' with my folks, I know
But I'mma be under the mistletoe

Word on the street santa's coming tonight,
Reindeer's flying through the sky so high
I should be making a list, I know
But I'mma be under the mistletoe

With you, shawty with you
With you, shawty with you
With you under the mistletoe

With you, shawty with you
With you, shawty with you
With you under the mistletoe
[ Lyrics from: http://www.lyricsmode.com/lyrics/j/justin_bieber/mistletoe.html ]
The wise men follow the stars (The wise men follow the stars)
They way I followed my heart
And it led me to a miracle

Don't you buy me nothing (don't you buy me nothing)
I am feeling one thing, your lips on my lips
There's a very, Merry Christmas

It's the most beautiful time of the year
Lights fill the streets spreading so much cheer
I should be playing in the winter snow (I know)
But I'mma be under the mistletoe

I don't want to miss out on the holiday
But I can't stop staring at your face
I should be playing in the winter snow
But I'mma be under the mistletoe

With you, shawty with you
With you, shawty with you
With you under the mistletoe

With you, shawty with you
With you, shawty with you
With you under the mistletoe

(Kiss me underneath the mistletoe)
Kiss me underneath the mistletoe
(Show me baby that you love me so)
Oh, oh, oh, oh, oh
Oh, oh, oh, oh, oh

(Kiss me underneath the mistletoe)
Kiss me underneath the mistletoe
(Show me baby that you love me so)
Ohhh, ohhh,
Mmmm

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Kiss me this Christmas. ;)

付出或保护?

2011-10-21T11:43:00.001+08:00

付出真心才能得到真心，却也可能伤得彻底。

保持距离也就能保护自己，却也注定永远寂寞。

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喜欢一个人。

2011-10-20T10:03:00.000+08:00

喜欢一个人，跟他在一起的时候，时间老不够用，
可是不跟他在一起的时候，时间却总用不完。

喜欢一个人，跟他在一起的时候，总有说不完的话题，
可是不跟他在一起的时候，却懒的说半句话。

喜欢一个人，跟他在一起的时候，表情会多的不够用，
可是不跟他在一起的时候表情通常只有一种：

想念。

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