Why is it so hard?

Tears stung my eyes, blurred my vision.

Why is it that people can do it and I can't?

Why is it that I gave up so easily?

How could I?

And now here I am, standing at a corner

Observing from afar how people are smiling, laughing

With happiness etch all over on their faces

Why can't I be those people instead?

Why must I let go of the one I used to hold so dearly in my heart?

I want to make a change to that

I want to make everything real again

I want to make it right again

Yet things will never ever be the same again

I still feel that pain

slowly spreading through my heart

I probably can't, and can never get over with what I have done

but I will try, try to win my happiness back

Once again.

Because I longed for that happiness once again.

-yunz-

Next up : Orientation week in Uni - Ice Breaking and WFC.