A quarter century.

WHAT?!

I know I seriously have been letting my blog rot. Who has the time to really sit down and blog after a long tiring day at work? Especially in this field, all you want to do is just go home, take a good shower and sleep. Who even has time to turn on the computer?

So, how does it feels like to be a quarter century old?

I feel old. Fullstop. All those late night partying and late nights at the studio seems way far behind. I feel crappy. And it's not even a month yet, since my birthday has past!

Here's what I feel and I know.

1) I feel old.

The backaches, early sleeping time, drinking hot tea instead of the normal alcohols. What more is there to be said?

2) I feel comfortable.

Yes. Dangerously comfortable. With work and with life now. It's going nowhere!! I terrible comfort that I only can wait for the time to come to make a change.

3) I feel bored.

Life's boring. At this moment, I feel like the world is moving at a pace that I could no longer keep up. I slip into that same old routine every single week, that it becomes a norm for me. Sometimes its boring, but sometimes it's the people that keeps me sane.

4) I feel... emotionally unstable.

Its as if I'm PMS-ing. I rarely do. But I get moody. Fluctuating up and down like some stupid shit. At times I want to be alone, and at times I really do want attention. What do I want anyways? I don't know. 

Which leads to...

5) I feel lost.

Lost at where I am in life. A dangerous position to be in at this moment, afraid of change. Having a certain direction in life but afraid to make that change. Dangerously comfortable with life that I got lost in what seems to be my own thoughts. Lost in my own world. 

Suddenly, I don't feel young anymore.

25,
it's just a number they say.
25,
I'm still young they say.

But I've got the urge,
to make a change,
for a better future.

Change, 

for a better journey ahead.