Through the rain.

I freaking need to blog. First, Facebook can't accommodate my rantings. Second, at least I'm updating, better than abandoning it like I used to.


Recently, stress has gotten to me. I finally succumb to stress. It wasn't that bad for the past 2 years since I started Uni. This time it's bad. Let me simplify it.

2 years ago, stress was :
- nothing
- pimples
- eating late night snacks to stay awake
- coffee has effect
- hyperness level = 100%
- workaholic
- Slow studying
- brain shrink
- sleepless nights
- Brain still able to function well after 3 days of no sleep

Now, stress is :
- mosquito bites
- headache
- lack of sleep
- hair loss
- freaking out
- hyperness level = 70%
- Trying to stay awake
- Blurness increase
- Brain shrink
- irregular sleeping times
- Panda eyes
- focus on road drop
- coffee has NO effect
- Brain total blank-out during presentation
- Worst of all, lost of appetite

Yeap. Basically I'm worried over my lost of appetite. Freakingly worried. I want it back to normal, but it takes time. People who knows me knows I can eat. Like EAT. People need one portion to fill their stomach, I need 2! But now, I barely even reach one person's portion. And when I can't eat, there's really SOMETHING wrong. Stress is getting to me. Yet all I could think now is that after all these is over, I will be able to sleep all I want, relax all I want. Yes. I'll fight for my last paper, my only paper for this semester, and I will win this battle. I will. (Hopefully~ I'm walking on a thin line which can break any moment.)



I so need a back rub, head massage, or practically, relaxation time at the spa right now. Blah~

What you fail to realize is that you are my motivation.